I'm still at the hospital ....I feel much better than before. ...besides getting out of nowhere headaches and my stitches are very itchy. ...they cut off my nice long nails when I started to scratch my disolveable stitches. ...so itchy. ....the staff here are very good to deal with. ......but although I feel fine the doctors explained to me why they must further look into why I collapsed m got this concusion and the root cause of my low blood pressure n they said I was disoriented and had signs of amnesia when I woke up here and explained to me this is a serious matter but everything looks to be healing very well ....I should be able to leave here in a few days I'm on 2 new meds they seem to be working well.....I manged to set up online banking a couple days ago so i can still pay the bills being in the hospital. ....also today I got in contact with my teachers to arrange how to do the miss tests I was absent for and I talked to my psychiatrist for 30 mim on the phone today.....I'm pleased that I was able to accomplish this today. .....on another note I still have worries on my mind but everyone has worries on their mind just in different variations ...one worry was that my mom didn't call me or see me since Sunday morning. ...its nice when she visits but it doesn't matter to me if she can't make its totally understandable like i told her when she first came I rather her visit my dad than me....he's still gravely ill it's unfortunate I wrote that note and gave it to my mom just at the beginning of feeling sick saying I am unable to attend the meeting and I consent to whichever decision made with the attending parties for my dad's care but would like to be notified during the meeting via phone as to what they are agreeing too...then I woke up here anyways.I started to get very worried when I tried to reach her all day and night Monday. ....and she didn't go to visit my dad I asked around and i called the hospital she was not seen there....so I called my aunt she wasn't available so I called my uncle to come get my house keys in case there was no answer and go over there to check on my mom to make sure shes ok and to collect any new mail and somethings I needed so I stayed on the phone with my uncle i was so happy my mom opened the door ....so he passed her the phone and I told her i was worried. ....then I hear her new boyfriend whatever Michael in the background talking to my uncle. ....to each there own but I find it ridiculous that she said she needed to rest at home but he's there......while she needed to rest.......that's not what bothered me while I was directing my uncle to find the things I need from my house i told him to get the mail it's usually in the kitchen in a box he saud he noticed a brochure and form and a writeup handwritten about selling a property. .....guess which one......my parents house my home......so I asked him to read it aloud to me and then I can hear my mom yelling to my uncle what are looking for .....then I told him pass the phone to her....we exchanged words. ....lol im happy i reminded her that she needs permission of both homeowners to sell.....lol I'm happy i made her feel stupid......fucken ridiculous she try to pull a move like that. ...put up tge house for sale and have that guy there while me and my dad are in the hospital. ...what the fuck....selling is not a option. ...my dad and I mutually agree that I'm not letting her sell. ......my dad will be home for his birthday ☺ on a visit I hope I'm home by then too.....what a sly foolish thing for her to do.....last week she told me she finds that guy Michael not to be a good match for her. ....I was pleased to hear that....so I'm unpleasantly surprised to find this out but it doesn't shock me. ......I have to make a couple phone calls in the morning to stop this ludicrous bullshit idea my mom thought she was going to do.....fucken ridiculous. ....I'm no longer letting any family members I resent or hate consume or bother my mind ....the hell with them ....I have other worries that are important to be concerned about. ...this concusion was a blessing in disguise ....I see what I was blinded from seeing before ....something positive about tomorrow is that the hospital is allowing me to go see my psychiatrist tomorrow with no iv bag stuck to me☺ but I must come back right after until I get the ok to leave they said by Sunday at the latest I will be discharged with my new meds....I dropped my phone today while I went for a walk around the hospital the hanging part of the iv for stuck and was dragging on the floor and got caught in the wheels so it pulled on my wrist and my phone dropped. ....some apps on my phone don't seem to be working good now ......no more heart monitor just ecg every 8 hours. ....interesting day. ....eye opening definitely ... what a day indeed

Saw my psychiatrist today she is very understanding and supportive to me. ......I'm blessed to have her. ....my mom isn't answering the phone again my poor dad is his deathbed and I don't know what is happening with my bf......who knows. ..... one my sponsor saw me today which was good. ....then my asshole brother came to see me and just grinned at me and laughed at me while karen was in the bathroom .......I feel fine physically but mentally I'm not all there

I don't know if I'm coming or going staying or leaving or decided or undecided. ......i know my health .... managing my dad's affairs and school are my priorities but..............

Hi sherrycat, that's an easy one, the first priority is your health. Your second priority is your health. And your third priority is your health.

You should not even be thinking of things outside hospital right now. You need to rest up, understand completely what went wrong with you with the doctors, and understand where you go from here in terms of managing your health better. Don't be afraid to ask questions.

I'm afraid you have seen far far too many hospitals recently. That has to be a wake-up call. Other things that happen are just things that happen. Your health is not something to be taken for granted. It is something you have to work at every day at this stage of your recovery. Including how to plan meals, get proper nutrition, sufficient sleep. These are the fuels that allow you to cope with daily issues. Without that fuel you are defenceless and have no armour.

You are right to not let the craziness (I hope I'm not being unkind) of your family cloud your head any more. As I have said on quite a few occasions, I believe your family is quite dysfunctional and you will be well served if you centre less and less of your life around them and interact more with stable individuals (sponsors, a few mature schoolmates) and your psychiatrist.

In regards to your mother and the house, you are beginning to see that you have power. You are not powerless. That is a big step forward.

I see you have the purple ribbon as your avatar. I see that as a big step forward too. Keep working to come out of the shadows, to be a survivor, to have your dignity, and to be proud of who you are.

Thank you nancy i got transferred to a different hospital to see another neurologist that is taking one more test on a device that is not at this hospital .....I haven't had another seizure which I don't remember having with the concussion.. I feel irritable and very scared but I need to know rather than not know since my health has to be the top* priority now ...I hope I don't developed epilepsy or have it but whichever the outcome I will fight to maintain it and take precautions so hopefully I will not circome to more seizures* ....they said time will tell but it's not been ruled out as a isolated seizure after the concusion* or epilepsy ..Ive been on anti seizure meds they seem to be working for now but doctor said if I get another seizure soon while on these meds I will classified as epileptic since I have a stage 2 concussion* ...I was figuring out bills earlier in the hospital ridiculous .. it's irritating* ..and it makes me sick when my brother came to visit me....I instantly say I'm tired I must sleep now* I hate him.....he mocked me he said softly to me. ..u know there is a way out of this.. ..yeah fucken right no thanks I refuse to be subjected to his evil and sickness abuse and mindgames* .......my mom hasn't come to visit me since Sunday* it doesn't matter but she isn't answering the phone while I have some simple things to tell her...ugh like by the way mom Im in a different hospital now* and I'm coming home .....I guess she is upset I wrecked her plan to sell the house . ...it's quite hurtful and telling that* she* just thinks she* can put it up for sale like that. ....it's not* happening nor can it ...my poor dad he's clueless because of his ailment. .....I feel like I'm going to cry...but I'm not..... my psychiatrist has been excellent she* empathizes and understands me and gives me comfort and advice she said yes I have a lot to handle but if i dont or cant handle it ......that's up to me and what is manageable for me she said I am the only one who will know what i can or can't* handle. ...she said she can make suggestions but ultimately it comes down to me I'm following her suggestions* and i do posses the capabilities to handle matters... if I take precautions and be mindful to make the right choices...if i cant or become unable to ...the result will be unfavorable* since it will be in the hands of my brother or mother or both of them or someone else possibly but whatever happens* ...she said shes very proud of me ....and* the amount of effort and heart i put into helping my parents is very noble but I must be strong and aware she empathizes with me since she said i didnt deserve for all of this to be dumped on me ...I don't know how my dad figured this out before in regards to finances. ...baffles my mind.. I told my psychiatrist the situation with my bf and how we both have issues to deal with and we both have different views it saddens me ....hopefully things will change and we will be closer more ...but she said dont worry if things don't end up working out....eventually someone else* will come along. ..she said I can be a very desirable and pleasant woman to be around....when I chose to be* ...my health is extremely important now and should always be top priority. ...because without it ....it will make things and situations epileptic since I have a stage 2 concussion* ...I was figuring out bills earlier in the hospital ridiculous .. it's irritating* ..and it makes me sick when my brother came to visit me....I instantly say I'm tired I must sleep now* I hate him.....he mocked me he said softly to me. ..u know there is a way out of this.. ..yeah fucken right no thanks I refuse to be subjected to his evil and sickness abuse and mindgames* .......my mom hasn't come to visit me since Sunday* it doesn't matter but she isn't answering the phone while I have some simple things to tell her...ugh like by the way mom Im in a different hospital now* and I'm coming home .....I guess she is upset I wrecked her plan to sell the house . ...it's quite hurtful and telling that* she* just thinks she* can put it up for sale like that. ....it's not* happening nor can it ...my poor dad he's clueless because of his ailment. .....I feel like I'm going to cry...but I'm not..... my psychiatrist has been excellent she* empathizes and understands me and gives me comfort and advice she said yes I have a lot to handle but if i dont or cant handle it ......that's up to me and what is manageable for me she said I am the only one who will know what i can or can't* handle. ...she said she can make suggestions but ultimately it comes down to me I'm following her suggestions* and i do posses the capabilities to handle matters... if I take precautions and be mindful to make the right choices...if i cant or become unable to ...the result will be unfavorable* since it will be in the hands of my brother or mother or both of them or someone else possibly but whatever happens* ...she said shes very proud of me ....and* the amount of effort and heart i put into helping my parents is very noble but I must be strong and aware she empathizes with me since she said i didnt deserve for all of this to be dumped on me ...I don't know how my dad figured this out before in regards to finances. ...baffles my mind.. I told my psychiatrist the situation with my bf and how we both have issues to deal with and we both have different views it saddens me ....hopefully things will change and we will be closer more ...but she said dont worry if things don't end up working out....eventually someone else* will come along. ..she said I can be a very desirable and pleasant woman to be around....when I chose to be* ...my health is extremely important now and should always be top priority. ...because without it ....it will make things and situations much more difficult to handle or impossible to handle

Sorry I apologize that it might be hard to read i had to take my pills yay no more meds via iv and i pushed the wrong button that made what I wrote duplicate somehow