I'm feeling like there's little hope, if any at all.
Take This Life  

Go Back   Take This Life > Challenges > Feeding the Fire > Venting


I'm feeling like there's little hope, if any at all.

This is a discussion on I'm feeling like there's little hope, if any at all. within the Venting forums, part of the Feeding the Fire category; I don't know how much longer I'll make it before I might be going crazy from not being able to ...

join us
Reply
 
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 09-28-21, 10:30 PM   #1
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2021
Posts: 65
My Mood:
Default I'm feeling like there's little hope, if any at all.

I don't know how much longer I'll make it before I might be going crazy from not being able to be me. I just don't know. It seems like God has abandoned me to dealing with this all by myself. I'm with this brother of mine who seems to constantly criticize and watch everything I do and it makes it hard for me to relax at times. I never know when he is going to explode in anger towards me. I feel a more acute sense of dread and sadness over life than happiness. The only happiness I might get is when I ask for something and that person happens to follow up but that's about it. I'm lucky to get any sort of appreciation of what I do in life. I wish I had an angel of God appear as a sign that he's actually protecting me instead of abandoning me. I can't just go somewhere to get away because I'm not able to drive and I can't just go to some other place to escape because well my friends are busy people themselves. I have had times when I wish I was someone else who got to do more activities and gets more cheers you know. It seems like little has worked out for me in life and I'm lucky that any sort of dream I had in life ever came true. Maybe prayer will help and I have tried praying and all. For some reason, I kind of doubt that God will ever help me at all. He says there is hope for me but it's been a bit hard for me to see that. I don't know why. I'm not seeing myself accomplish much or really live a dream. It seems like I have damn little to look forward to. I can't see any sort of good purpose for myself on this earth at all. The only thing I seem to be looking forward to at the present time is the day he happens to finish this project of his and leaving. Part of me thinks by the time he'd be able to leave, it'd be too cold for any of us to want to be outdoors. It doesn't look like much good will come out of all this. I can't for the life of me see how life can be better. I don't see how I can choose happiness when I'm feeling constantly miserable. I was hoping to have had more to life than this kind of existence but now it doesn't look like it. I'm starting to become very depressed about life like my suffering will have been a real waste. I'm starting to feel pretty gloomy about everything. I don't know why.
Notspecial is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 10-13-21, 05:21 PM   #2
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2020
Posts: 80
Default

Hello, how is your day going? Hope you are better. I felt like this before, and I will tell you a secret, God will never give you a direct answer or a sign, but that is not a bad thing, he gives you the opportunity to take courage to get yourself out of the hole.

You must take the courage to talk to someone about how you feel, sometimes it seems that there is no one but I swear there is, you are not alone.

Find things that excite you, if these activities don't hurt you, then try these activities. Realize what you are worth and then find what you like to have a living for.

I know this seems silly, I also believed it before. Please seek help and take care of yourself.
rottenpizza is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 10-28-21, 01:48 AM   #3
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2021
Posts: 65
My Mood:
Default

I have managed to find things to excite me and this brother of mine left and I have been doing better since he has been gone. I believe God isn't direct with a sign; I strongly believe that. Here I was irked because I misplaced my phone tonight and mother ranted on me about upsetting her. I feel crappy as even being me because of getting upset sometimes. It seems like I feel fine with myself as long as I'm in a fairly good mood. That's what I found out in life.
Notspecial is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-18-21, 01:49 PM   #4
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2021
Posts: 65
My Mood:
Default

I'm starting to feel rather hopeless again. I don't know why. I'm starting to already think my life will be rather unhappy because I can't seem to make what I want to happen and sometimes I have felt rage over it.
Notspecial is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-18-21, 07:02 PM   #5
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2020
Posts: 80
Default

Hi, I'm sorry you feel this way. At this moment I don't know how to advise you since I feel very the same, but the best thing I can advise you at this time is to seek a professional, not because you are crazy or anything like that, but because no one should feel that way and not be able to talk to someone understand them.

Be careful, don't keep this quiet or it could end badly. If you cannot access to therapy, you can call the helplines in your country.

Take care please, talk to someone you trust. Goodnight!
rottenpizza is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-19-21, 06:19 PM   #6
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2021
Posts: 65
My Mood:
Default

thanks for your support, rottenpizza. What good would therapy do me? probably not much. I don't feel like I should even pray to God for help anymore because well that's what it's like when He's just forgotten you. laughs.
Notspecial is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 12-20-21, 01:59 PM   #7
Junior Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2020
Posts: 80
Default

Hi, therapy is not going to make you feel better right away but talking to someone is very liberating, and a therapist doesn't tell anyone about what you tell them. And of course, therapists have a lot of good advice.

God is not always the answer, God wants that if he cannot help you, you can help yourself, seeking the help you need.

Take care, have a nice day!
rottenpizza is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply

Thread Tools

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are On



All times are GMT -5. The time now is 05:20 AM.


Powered by vBulletin® Version 3.8.8
Copyright ©2000 - 2022, vBulletin Solutions, Inc.
Shoutbox provided by vBShout v6.2.1 (Lite) - vBulletin Mods & Addons Copyright © 2022 DragonByte Technologies Ltd.
vBulletin Security provided by vBSecurity v2.2.2 (Pro) - vBulletin Mods & Addons Copyright © 2022 DragonByte Technologies Ltd.
 

Content Relevant URLs by vBSEO 3.3.2