Long ago, intentionally or not, and want to smash their face in with a brick. Some I have posted about here, some are from even before.

Adding to my already untrusting nature of other people, I don't trust anyone anymore, and yet still feel alone. (I'd have expected to give up by now and just live my life as a hermit and not feel anything) All the bad things they said keep playing over and over in my head. I want to ruin their lives one by one. I'm probably nothing more than a bug on a windshield to them, so why do I keep dwelling?

More importantly how do I stop the violent thoughts?

People say time heals all wounds. How long is this supposed to take? Sure its not as frequent as before, but when it hits, it hits pretty hard.

I don't have any advice for you PheonixBomb, but I think I know how you feel. Maybe not quite as violently though, but I have felt the same way a lot.

I hope you find a way to help relax your mind so that these thoughts become less severe.



I must add though, I do like the idea of a 'want to stab someone' mood option you have requested in your sig.

I can relate to some of what you said. Not sure exactly how to stop those thoughts but there are ways to perhaps deflect or channel that energy without harming anyone or self, while at the same time possibly releasing some of that frustration. Maybe if you wrote each person or thing that bothers you on a separate sheet of paper (write anything nasty or mean that comes to mind about that person or thing on the paper) then tear the heck out of that paper, ripping it, stomping on it, etc. Another option might be meditation - sitting quietly and focusing on one thing intently, not holding on to thoughts but just let them flow in and out. Maybe these can help you

So have I and I have had to go through intensive hypnosis sessions and make better memories apart from certain people to help me forget. I wasn't hoping at all that life would be like this. I felt I deserved better than that. It makes me want to throw the rest of my lifespan away. laughs. I don't know if therapy would ever help me as long as I remember those awful moments. It seems like having a very good memory seems like a curse.