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Old 12-05-16, 07:53 PM   #1
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Question I don't know what's going on.

I don't even know if anyone is gonna even read this until the end, but that's alright, it's probably good for me to just let it out. But I don't even know if there's something inside that I need to express.. I know something isn't right, I know I'm not okay, but I do not know exactly why..
Some of my family members found out that I had been self-harming, so they decided it was better if I saw a psychologist. I didn't mind to be honest, I had been thinking it would be better too, anyways.. So, I had my first appointment with her around two weeks ago. It went well, I think, but she asked me why I did it, and I couldn't find an explanation to give her..
I guess I just hate myself so much that I can't let myself be happy.. My mind keeps making things worse and I can't stop it..I have someone that means everything to me, that truly makes me happy, but I just ruin that.. I think too much and that destroys me.. All that happiness disappears. But I seriously disgust myself, I'm sick of being me, sick of existing.. I want this feelings to end.. I don't want to feel anymore..
I mean, sometimes I'm actually good, some other times I get sad.. But there are some days when it gets really bad.. Like right now.. I just feel as if tomorrow isn't going to exist, like I'm going to sleep and I'm not going to wake up..
I just don't know what to think, or what to do.. I'm sorry..
If you at least read this, thank you, I appreciate it
I missed this place though.. but I don't know why I couldn't find it :c.. I'm gad I did now, though.
And I apologize for my English, it's not my native/first language.
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Old 12-07-16, 04:40 PM   #2
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When did you start feeling like something wasn't right? Has it been a long time?
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Old 12-08-16, 05:29 PM   #3
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When did you start feeling like something wasn't right? Has it been a long time?
Yeah, around two years ago I guess.. In the end of 2014, if I'm not wrong..
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Old 12-10-16, 11:43 PM   #4
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That is pretty long :/ Did something happen that caused you to feel like this or did the feeling kind of just.. happen?
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Old 12-11-16, 06:20 AM   #5
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I don't really know.. My parents divorced, so maybe t was that.. but I'm not sure because I'm okay with that
But I did notice some difference in the way I felt some months after that.. I kind of started to isolate myself and feeling bad about myself.. Having suicidal thoughts (more often than now)..
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