That's all.

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hope u get some rest soon. (((((((((HUGS)))))))))

Hi lz, I'm so sorry your so tired:(

You've got to get some proper nutrition, are you taking care of yourself?
It makes a huge difference if we are not getting the stuff we need to survive, I know it's hard, but you really must take good care of yourself!
I wish I would have caught you on line today!
Please be nice to yourself! :)

I'm taking a medicine now, one of the side effects is supposed to be increased appetite. still waiting for that to kick in. I ate a quarter cup of white rice on wednesday, still drinking my chocolate drink stuff, with some yogurt mixed in to get bacteria back in my stomach...

another side effect is drowziness.... I've been sleeping 10+ hours every night. Last night I had almost twelve.

I am too sad to eat. But my therapist wants me to eat a little rice everyday, so I told him I would try.

gonna see if Eugene will meet me for lunch tomorrow. I'll probably just get some ice cream if he says yes. I hope he's not busy, I really need the contact.

I hope he is there too :)
Well, good I'm glad your getting some nourishment :)
Are you feeling any better, besides being tired?
Please take care!

I feel horrible. like things are never going to turn around.... wondering why my parents kept me from having relationships with other kids. trying not to become embittered at them, for making me grow up with noone to talk to. it has made everything so impossibly hard now.

eating hardly seems important anymore.

I'm sorry you have had such a hard time lz :(
Things will get better for you I'm just sure of it!
Try to forgive your parents for not being very smart about how to raise a child! Pray for them, I know you can do that!:)
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I will keep you in my prayers!

I'm not sure what makes you think I can forgive them so easily. Dad's dead, not much growth potential for a relationship there, mom eloped with a guy just like dad, moved far away. She tells me I'm the reason our relationship doesn't work. She also thinks she's the reason why I am a Christian, when I actually became one because God promised me love that I'd never known from my parents.

not very smart is a gross understatement.

I'm sorry lz, the passing of your dad I'm sure was very tramtic for you. Your mom not seeming to give a *uck sucks too.
I know, even though both of my parents are wtill alive, I didn't speak to my mother for over 5 years! It was hard to ever talk to her again, but I did it!
I decided I was going to be the better person in our relationship!
I have alot of really rough days, like today she picked me up to go to hospital to see my grandma, my dads mom, my parents divorced over 23 yrs ago, where does she get off still calling my grandma Mom? IDK.
But I have gotten older, now I have children of my own and I've made plenty of mistakes! I'm human, we all are and we make mistakes!
I just hope you are giving yourself a chance to change your life and your feelings, lz I don't want you to get mad at me, but YOU have the power! You and you alone, to not let other ppl decide and be the cause of whats ailing you!
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