Originally Posted by WomanOfSelfHatred
There is no god. Never has been, never will be. And even if he is real, he would frown upon those who have autism. Listen, praying doesn't help, and never will help. The next person in my life to tell me otherwise, I will not be nice to them.
I have autism. I just lost my job that I loved so much and worked for over 11 years because I kept shaking my leg and kept needing to blow my nose. (The employer's official reason was something else, but it was a bullshit reason and I know what the real reason was).
Maybe this is just going to upset you, I don't know. But for me, when I was an atheist it did nothing positive for me other than give me suicidal thoughts and made me feel like life was pointless.
I won't get into the reasons, but there is still reason to believe there might be a God. Not only that, but somehow all the pain you endure in this life will somehow be compensated for in the next. I don't know how exactly, but from what I've read that's how it works. So don't feel bad, just know that all of the pain you're feeling has a reason behind it.