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Old 11-09-14, 04:08 PM   #1
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I am usually a happy, cheerful person , but I'm going through a very hard and painful time.I have dated someone for the past five month,and everything was happy moments with hopes and talks of the future.I am a patient person and do not demand much from a man in the beggining...However ,one night I shared a dream I had .i held him in my arms and told him I dreamed that he was gone....he joked and said , where ? everything continued as normal ,and one day as we were going to the mountains I asked him what he d like for his Birthday ,wich of course was a month ahead...he responded ...we can go on a trip if we still together.I tried to stay calm ,but that night I showed him for the first time my sadness...he was uncertain about our future together .He has also mentioned that he has some secrets about him to reveal and told me that he cares but not to make him my whole universe...I stood calm, sad but calm. Since then everything changed,he was moodier,less affectionate by phone or text.He came to see me after two weeks last weekend when I was starting my PMS.he was very caring with me and affectionate and I thought things are back to normal ...but my PMS combined to stress and emotions did not stop .i called him on Wensday and asked him to call me back wich he did ...it was early in morning and I missed his call.Due to my emotions past week I got worried about everyting ,job,car, relationship and I ve been really depressed .i called him Friday and Saturday and texted him few times.i told him I am very emotional on PMS and still waiting on my period ....he texted me back something about a car I asked him to check and asked me how long I was late ? I responded just couple of days,that everything should be fine and that it should start me next few days and that u was emotional .... He did not want to speak on phone it seems .and I left it at that yesterday around noon....he has not called me or came and see me.i blame everyting on me know that I told him that I m PMS and my period still not started....I guess its due to stress and to our rocky times lately .the thing us that what I'm going through did not start a week a go,it started 3 weeks a go ,when we had the talk about the future....I am in such a pain still and can't eat right.i blame this on me ,because I told him about PMS and being late ...he has not tell me we done ,but I feell he abandoned me when I needed him the most and I feell it's my fault .we were so happy and I have to face i ve lost what we had ...I miss what we had ,he was here last Sunday ...I feell so empty , lost weight, sleep ,and it's like he told me.If I leave you, I will crush your world...I feell like by telling him the truth that I'm late and emotional I pushed him even further ....abd I'm facing the hard truth that he once told me ...if I leave u ,your world will be crushed .Please be patient to me ,I don't want to be depressed , but I feell like my chest is burning and I miss him so much .....I just want to tell him that I will be ok if he is done with me ...I will not beg or plead .but I'm hurting so much right now ...
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I am so sorry to hear that. :(((((( One big for you. Please stay strong, you will feel better. I am cheering for you, i hope things will work out the best
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Old 01-11-15, 04:21 PM   #3
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So he is gone ....it's been 10 days without contact from him.
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((((((((((speranta)))))))))))))


I am sorry to hear that. What happened?

Dont worry you can find a better one~
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Old 01-11-15, 05:11 PM   #5
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My boyfriend of seven month backed off after we went through an abortion.Actually he was telling me he is not sure about our future but we kept on seeing each other ....he us bipolar but takes his meds .We never said its over,he just got busy with his cousin but told me he wants to see me.....one month since I last saw him and we were still hopefull, already 10 days since we last spoke when he said he ll come see me the following day....he dissapeared
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What an asshole! I am sorry for that, but really, he is an asshole if he left you like that with no warning or whatsoever. You went through abortion, not him. He should be there 24/7 for you these days!!! Stay strong, if he comes back and starts treating you nicely, good, if he doesnt i would suggest to ditch the bastard and find someone who will love you and treat you the way you deserve to be treated.

Stay strong speranta.
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Thank u...I'm just worried bout him
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Well you heard from him, right? He spoke to you. He didnt just wander off into unknown, most likely. I hope he is alright, and i hope he didnt do it willingly, but most likely he did do it willingly, at least in my opinion, but i cant tell much, since i dont know him. Anyway, i hope you 2 will work it out or that you will find a better one.

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Old 01-12-15, 04:24 PM   #9
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Sorry nope ...not heard from him .he is bipolar but takes his meds
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I hope you hear from him soon. I know all to well how it feels to go through that.
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