My best friend is massively depressed, I love him more than anything - there are 2 people I care about right now, he's one and I'm dating the other.
He's also on this site, but refuses contact with me here. I understand his reasons but he phrased it hurtfully. But the thing is, I've this irrational fear.
He's friends with one person in particular on this site, she's a bit younger than him, he loves talking to her and see's a lot of himself in her. He said he wants to save her from his path in life.
Thing is, he's in a really dark place right now, is often in a bad place, but its getting bad these days and all he talks about is death when he's being totally honest. I'm worried that he's waiting to make her happy, properly, and then leave the site on the grounds of "I don't need it anymore" and kill himself on grounds that he's redeemed himself... It's not very rational, but it terrifies me, and it seems like something he'd plan. =[
He refuses point blank to tell his parents or a GP or a guidance counsellor, and I'm just so worried about him, he can't see the serious problems - he got hurt after a relationship and he still cant view it properly in hindsight, and frequently blames himself and not that this is how it goes. He cant see where it was his fault, and sees her anger and harsh words for what it was - stress, and the fact that she was upset, and sees that as "I hate you and you should kill yourself". This REALLY affects him...