At this moment my boyfriend is suffering. I know of my problems and things that I need to work on. I've changed my diet around and I'm healing from past trauma. My boyfriend on the other hand is very hard on himself and tends to worry a lot. His job at the moment is stressing him out and he's experiencing lots of mood swings, sadness and anger.
One night as I was trying to comfort him, he kinda started giving me the cold shoulder. All I did was give him advice and he got a bit upset. Feel as if he thinks I was looking down on him and I wasn't. When he's playing video games and distracting himself, he's very happy and content which makes me really happy. However his moods say otherwise and I'm worried about it.
He's admitted that needs to stop drinking because he's starting to become in debt from using his credit card on alcohol too much. When he admitted this, he looked worried. Believe he uses alcohol of a way to relax and to escape from daily stresses and he knows this. Lately I'm starting to catch on how sad he is because he told me how he dissociates and how often he gets paranoid about me leaving him or finding someone else. He frequently worries about this and he's been abused as a kid by his father who used to hit him and his mother abandoned him at a young age.
I love him with all my heart and I told him I'd be here for him. He's experiencing lots of different mood swings and it takes awhile before he can calm back down a lot. I just hope he can do something for himself and try to find a way to open up to me. There's times he opens up to me but sometimes he does hold himself back.
Before me, he was with someone who cheated on him. She ended up leaving him for the guy and got married and had a kid with other guy she left him for.
I'm not sure if this is why he worried about me leaving him or he just simply has abandonment issues. Anytime I try to ask, he sort of gets upset so I won't push it any further. He's very sensitive and hard on himself. There's times I think he may have Borderline Personality Disorder but I can't be too sure because I'm not a doctor and can't diagnose him. He does have high anxiety though and stomach problems due to his anxiety.
I give him lots of hugs, kisses and massage his back and when I do this, he's very happy. Just wish there was something I could do to help him. I know I can't save him or anything but I worry for him a lot and just want him to improve on things. He won't admit any of this. Instead he'll just tell me he's fine and deny that anything is wrong or upsetting him.
Just wanted to post this because I've been worried about him all night.