Well ... I ended here .
Long story short - my fiancÚ dumped me few months ago. I can't handle it . I'm positive 32 year old man that lives his live for the moment. I loved to party, to meet new friends and more. I'm still doing it but i'm not happy. I don't want to loose my smile and my passion for living. I need a new start in my life or just to cry in the corner. Oddly my emotions stays in me and even if I try to express my feelings I can't do It properly .
My friend are behind men, my family, my co-workers but the emptiness in my soul is still there. I feel lonely and unloved . My heart is broken. I don't know if I will love somebody in my life anymore or how to find a exit from this situation. Every time when i start something new i'm thinking about her.
There are days that I can't even remember her but man... not today.
This little b*tch moved out with her colleague and now are living happily.She started a new life. I found out that she was planning to dump me before but didn't had the courage to do it. We were fighting for the past 6 months constantly because she was sitting in the office till late. Now I understand why . The poor bastard left his child to be with my beloved one.That makes me sad . I'm not even angry about that . I'm just lost.
Everybody told me to hold on and the happiness will come. Well for the past 5 months is not coming :(
I just want to hide somewhere and start to cry but is not easy . I lost my cry ability when i was 10 .