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Old 07-16-18, 05:00 PM   #1
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Soo for a long time i have been dealing with depression, to what expert level i don't know. I have never seen anyone for help before, i have never told people how i feel inside, well no one that is a part of my life in some way that is.

I find it difficult to talk about it, simply because mostly i dont even know how to explain it, explain why i feel the way i do. Sometime i think to myself that i am just being stupid to feel depressed.

But anyways... Back to the point. So i have never been on any antidepressants or seen help. I dont like taking pills, i only take pills for headaches, that does not happen much. I should be on chronic medication for 13 years now, problems with my colon. But i dont drink anything, have not for 13 years. So i dont want to pop "happy pills" everyday for the rest of my life... From what i have heard and also seen, the happy pills kinda fuck people up. I read a couple of post where people talk about different types that you would possibly work through before you get the right one.

I dont have the slightest idea of what to expect if i do see someone for help. Will they give me guidance on things that my mind is screwing me up with. Will they fix my broken sides. Or will they sit there and pretend to listen and not give a shit. Do they just want to get the money for the session and thats it?

So i don't know. I am pretty fucked up. I want to die, but i don't want to take my own life. I don't want to hurt the people close to me with a burden like that. No i can't do that. But i do sit and hope that something could just happen. That way i know those close to me will be able to cope with it better. Not having to deal with a suicide you know.

So could i ask for some help, could you maybe share with me more or how the medication works, what it does and so on. Also with therapy, what do you get out of it. Could i sit on the roof, smoke a joint and talk to a brick, expecting to get the same results as a therapist?

So please feel free to shed some light.

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Old 07-17-18, 03:49 AM   #2
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Hi Convict :)

Therapy can be really helpful if you get a good therapist and if you can stick it out when it gets uncomfortable. Sometimes it takes a seeing a few different people till you find someone you click with, don't give up if you don't like the first person you see.

The very first time I went to therapy I was so anxious that I had to get a friend drive me and when I got there I threw up in the gutter. I was so scared that all the shit in my head was going come out and that I'd get locked away, but I knew that if I didn't get help I could not go on living. As unwell as I was ( depression, ptsd, anxiety) I knew that I was fighting for my life.

I have seen a few different therapists, some better than others, each using different styles. They have each helped me in different ways. its probably the hardest thing I've ever done but it saved my life. I found art therapy and sandplay very good along with treatment for PTSD. Learning to meditate was really helpful, I still do it.

I tired medications but I had a bad reaction to them and couldn't keep taking them. But they are very helpful for a lot of people, particularly when the depression is very physical (no energy, sleeping a lot,can't think). The research shows that people who do meds and therapy get the best results.

I'd encourage you to seek help, and don't give up too early, you deserve to be well and feeling better! Keep posting and do any little thing that helps, no matter what others think.
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Thanks alot fedup for your feedback.

Wow so it is not just me that is scared of going, scared that i might be sent to a mental institution or some shit. Although, getting happy pills al day long and be out of it most of the time kinda sounds good in some sense.

My friends do not know about my depression, well i am sure they do because i am a negative person, but i have not spoken to them about my darkness, so i have to take myself to a therapist, i need to push myself to take that step.

My depression is not physical or anything, i don't cut myself or hurt myself in ways. But that doesn't mean it is not going on in my head, that is where most of the shit is happening. I will sit and stare into the distance, thinking of weird shit, thinking of ways i can harm myself to feel release, or what could kill me at that exact moment.

But that is where it stays and have been for the past 10 odd years.

I will look around my area for therapist and see if i can get some information about them online. I am sure it wont hurt to go see someone even if it is just to experience sharing my problems with a professional. Maybe it helps me to carry on seeing one.

I have been a member here for a while, even though i am not that active, i do read whats going on here and that has helped me alot. Just to see what other people are goinf through and how they are dealing with it.
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Old 07-20-18, 03:36 PM   #4
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I'm not an expert, but I can give you some advice from my experience. It might really help you to go see a therapist to talk to. They won't send you to a psycho ward, or think you're some kind of a nut. They deal with all sorts of problems, and can give you an insight into things that you hadn't thought of.

I went to a therapist many years ago, and he was helpful, but I gave up too quick after a few sessions and stopped going. That was a mistake on my part. I have a major issue with self esteem, and it's my nature to give up when things get hard. I even remember the therapist asking me to get a book to help me, but just scanning thru it at the bookstore overwhelmed me - I even cried because I felt like such a loser.. I bought the book, but it's sitting on a shelf at home. If I had just continued my therapy, there's a chance I would have been able to fight thru my fears, anxieties and self-confidence issues.

I regret not keeping with it. I'm in my 60's now, and I still kick myself for being so afraid to try harder. My life could have been better if I had gotten to the root of my problems.

Personally, I don't like the idea of taking depression medications. To me, meds just MASK the problem. You've got to get to the ROOT of your problems. I guess meds help some people, so I won't say don't take em. Get a mental health professional and get HIS advice. They know what they are talking about. They've seen it all.

I really hope this helps. I am miserable and alone because I didn't attack my fears and insecurities. PLEASE - don't end up like me. You're not a loser - in fact, if you go get help, it shows how STRONG you are. Hey, I really hope things get better for you. Go for it!
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I'm not an expert, but I can give you some advice from my experience. It might really help you to go see a therapist to talk to. They won't send you to a psycho ward, or think you're some kind of a nut. They deal with all sorts of problems, and can give you an insight into things that you hadn't thought of.

I went to a therapist many years ago, and he was helpful, but I gave up too quick after a few sessions and stopped going. That was a mistake on my part. I have a major issue with self esteem, and it's my nature to give up when things get hard. I even remember the therapist asking me to get a book to help me, but just scanning thru it at the bookstore overwhelmed me - I even cried because I felt like such a loser.. I bought the book, but it's sitting on a shelf at home. If I had just continued my therapy, there's a chance I would have been able to fight thru my fears, anxieties and self-confidence issues.

I regret not keeping with it. I'm in my 60's now, and I still kick myself for being so afraid to try harder. My life could have been better if I had gotten to the root of my problems.

Personally, I don't like the idea of taking depression medications. To me, meds just MASK the problem. You've got to get to the ROOT of your problems. I guess meds help some people, so I won't say don't take em. Get a mental health professional and get HIS advice. They know what they are talking about. They've seen it all.

I really hope this helps. I am miserable and alone because I didn't attack my fears and insecurities. PLEASE - don't end up like me. You're not a loser - in fact, if you go get help, it shows how STRONG you are. Hey, I really hope things get better for you. Go for it!
That is why i was considering to see someone, because they have seen it all and heard it all. They know more about the matters than i do. I also have self esteem issues, but somehow i have managed to have a fiance who loves me dearly. Although things are abit rough lately... It feels like we are clashing alot lately.

I can relate to giving up to quick, i do that alot aswell, that for me has to do with my self esteem being low and thinking i wont be able to do something or accomplish something. I never feel like i am good enough for things. I appear to be a strong person, but i am not. Inside i am falling apart. Outside i put a mask on to pretend everything is fine.

Some people say that depression meds make you worst. I do not like taking pills, so i dont want to be hooked on pills forever and always. But if it will help me to get through with everything then i will try it.

I push people away with my negativity and depression. I have a few friends only, very close and true friends, but they dont know my darkness... Not even my fiance knows my darkness. I like being alone, i function better alone, that way it is easier to deal with my mind. I dont do good with big groups of people.

Thank you very much for your input on my topic, it really helps alot. I have a different perspective now.

I hope that i will be able to go through with it and push through the hard times. Well i have pushed through for 10 odd years with my depression. I am hitting 30 in 3 months time. I feel like a old man already with my pains and shit. But i dont want to push on for another 30 years with the way i feel. I surely will take my life before then.
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