I started therapy two weeks ago and ive had two sessions now. I was sceptical at first but i do feel it has been worth it so far. 50 minutes i get a session.
First session - we established that I hated myself as a person and i blame myself for things that are out of my control. I didnt like that i was beating myself up for things that i had done either.
Second session - we looked further into why i blame myself for certain issues. My like the sexual abuse i faced with my grand father. She asked me a simple question. 'you were 8 years old, you didnt know what was going on, you need to cut the 8 year old you some slack and actually realize that it wasnt your fault. Now do you see why you shouldnt blame yourself'
It was difficult to gear as it was a realization that i had no answer to give. Blaming myself was easier than blaming him.
In the second session we had a discussion about my brother, which in all fairness isnt really relevant i was just ranting on about him.