I'm nervous about going back to Therapy. It isn't that hard. I mean, making the call is always hard, but my old therapist made it easier. He gave me some recommendations that he thought would be a good match for me and did the initial work to find out if they were taking on new patients so I wouldn't end up calling and just getting rejected. But I'm still nervous. I'm afraid I'll mess it up and that I'll go back and it won't help or I don't know, that the new therapist will see me the same way I do and decide that I'm not worth the trouble and will give up on me and if I have to look on my own, I just won't be able to do it. And intellectually I know it will be fine, but the emotional side doesn't believe that and I just can't stop worrying. And I've been putting off contacting them. I've always had a reason, but I know it is just excuses and I won't have any more excuses next week.. I know I need to get help, but part of me says that I shouldn't bother because there is nothing wrong with me and I am just a fake and part of me tells me that I shouldn't because I'm not worth bothering anybody and wasting their time when there are other people who could acually be helped and part of me is just scared.
For people who have gotten an official diagnosis, what was it like? With my last Therapist, I specifically did not ask and at one point specifically asked not to be told since knowing at that point would have been bad for me, no matter what it was. But since I left, I've been thinking back and wondering what it is like to have name(s) that you "know" you can attach to the issues you have. I mean, to have a diagnosis from a professional.
So I was wondering what it was like for those people who have gotten that opportunity - was it helpful to have that name, did it make things harder, was it good or bad? What people are willing to share probably differs, but any insight people have on their experience - what it was like regarding that would be helpful for me to read and I would appreciate.
Hopefully that makes sense.