Thank you both for your replies!
@ Ashadeep: Thatís really nice of you! Thank you so much for offering your help
@ nobodyhelpsme: I am happy you asked these questions!
How do you kill thoughts?
To kill a negative thought, you need a plan. I planned 3 things that I could think about as soon as I had a negative thought:
1. Think about my project
2. Start enumerating nice stuff that happened throughout the day, starting from when I woke up. (No matter how depressed you are, you can find positiveness, you just have to think hard.)
3. Start signing the lyrics of a song in my head or hum a melody.
Thatís just fooling the brain because it cannot think about 2 things in the same time ;)
Having a life project is good advice, but how do you find things you like enough to learn them?
Yup, thatís not easy to do, youíre right. But the whole point of learning is so that it keeps you from being negative and depressive. So finding something that you like could be a project in itself. Take that as a challenge.
That is what I suggest you do: think about what you already like and search the Internet about these subjects. You will maybe find a website or a community that will inspire you. That will give you more ideas and will motivate you.
Here a few links for ideas:
50 Ways To Outrun A Boring Life | Time Management Ninja
Life is boring... unless you make it exciting! - hearty thought
10 New Skills You Can Learn in 6 Months
Where do you get the confidence that you can pursuit this project of yours to completion? And how do you solve finding learning what you need difficult?
A project always has obstacles and moments of discouragement. Maybe it will not even be possible to complete the project, but it is not what matters. I will just tell you one thing: force yourself to never give up, even through difficulties. Do you know how strong that will make you in the long term? Always tell yourself that: every hardship is an opportunity to change your way of thinking and becoming a stronger person. Seize it!
Last thing: I find it really important to talk to someone who understands you. But hey, if thatís not possible, thatís okay! Iím here; weíre all here to give you a little confidence push, help you find a project and keeping it up!