so im new to this forum but im looking for...something to help me with this.
i have serve depression/anxiety lately and i dont know where its coming from. it was just all of a sudden.
depression isnt something new to me ive had it before but its been pretty good for a long time and then just all of a sudden i have anxiety attacks and i am completely apathetic or really depressed.
as i said the depression isnt something new in my life ive had depression for a long time but not like this. in my lows i have thought of self-harming...not killing my self but just harming myself and i cant figure out the reason for this i dont see what it would achieve
i have had suicidal thoughts but it hasnt involved harming myself this is a completely different urge and it strong. i dont understand why i have this.
and yes i have had suicidal thoughts.
i dont know what to do right now. i dont have the money or insurance for a shrink.
my wife is no help. she understands what depression is and everything as she has suffered from it before as well but i dont feel comfortable talking about it to her. i did pretty much tell her everything i just said (except the self-harming part) and she didnt really have anything to say other than when i said i had suicidal thought i said i knew it was stupid and she said good it should feel stupid and to hold onto the revelation of it being stupid.
i need some insight on this