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Old 07-06-10, 08:52 PM   #51
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I guess I am desperate. But this carousel of misery was put in motion long ago. It’s too late to fix it. I’ll just accept that I’ll be alone forever. I’ll never become some confident stud who doesn’t care whether women like him or not. It just won’t happen. No matter what I try or what gimmicks I used to convince myself that I’m not a loser.

I’ve tried giving up on dating before and I just can’t do it. My mind won’t accept that. If I want something, I work hard for it. That’s how my mind works. It’s too illogical, on the surface, to stop trying to go after something that I want. My mind won’t give up. My mind thinks that beating me up will help, and it never gives up on it’s mission. Plus, when I have given up before, as soon as things start to move towards a possible relationship, I got frantic again and screw it up. This paragraph makes no sense.

I guess I don’t want to kill myself. Too much effort. I just want to not be alive anymore. I use the relationship thing as an excuse, but I just don’t like myself much in general. I don’t deserve a good woman. I was born to be a lonely loser and that’s that. I think I get suicidal first, and then find a reason to feel that way. I guess I’m just wired to want to kill myself.

Fuck fuck fuck it all. My job doesn’t matter. My looks don’t matter. Being in shape doesn’t matter. Talents don’t matter. While I’m typing this, I keep getting the urge to pick up the keyboard and smash it into the wall. I don’t want to hurt other people so much anymore. But I’d still rather be dead. No real plan on killing myself though.
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Old 07-06-10, 09:54 PM   #52
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I know it sucks man. The same thing has happened to me, I've tried everything. All I wanted out of this world was to experience love, but it isn't going to happen.

I have to listen to my roommate have sex with their girlfriends every single day. Sometimes several times a day. As well as the people who live in the apartments near me.

I understand your urge to destroy. At this point all I want to do is smash that keyboard man. I want to smash it right into a woman's face and tell her that she doesn't have the right to reject me anymore because I'm better than that.

I don't know what to tell you, or that it will ever get better, but just understand, the same thing happened to me too brother; and I'm sorry.
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Old 07-07-10, 03:40 PM   #53
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I stopped back in to see how you were doing, automatron. I'm sorry things are the same for you. I wish I could help.
I don't think you were born to be a lonely loser. I don't know how much that counts, but just wanted to throw it in.

Sending more positive thoughts your way
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Another dude I know just announced on Facebook that he's in a relationship. I can't wait to die.
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Old 07-09-10, 01:40 PM   #55
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Thanks Roads and Painfully Numb

I'm not suicidal right now. I'm just all over the place. Up and down. Last night I got to listen to the couple upstairs have a shouting match. It sounded like they broke up. I remember when I met them feeling jealous of the guy because the girl is attractive. But listening to their misery last night made me feel good about not having to deal with anyone else's shit.

I was thinking yesterday about how I'm actually single by choice. There are people that I could have been in relationships. But there was some sort of bullshit that I didn't want to deal with. I'm not going to put up with people's crap just so I can be with someone.
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Old 08-24-11, 05:48 AM   #56
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Yeah I totally feel you- I am in the exact same situation. All I can find are women that play games, complain about there are no good men left and they just turned me down. Or how about mess with some random dude instead of you at their bonfire party? Check out my post, bro it sucks! I am at the edge over it too. Some good posts in this thread! I think this is one of guys biggest reasons for wanting to kill themselves right here!

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Old 03-09-18, 03:44 AM   #57
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This is an old post but I am in exactly the same boat. Same age as you mentioned too. I'm 28, it's been over 2 years since I've had sex, and it kills me. I hope you are doing better in your 30s now bro. That seems to be the only hope I have at this point is that something within pushes me in the right direction and God blesses me with whatever it is that I'm lacking to have a beautiful woman in my life who I can share life, be intimate with, and adores me just as much as I adore her. I wish I had advice in my response but all I can say is that I'm currently dealing with the same thing in my life and it is soul draining, leaving me feel worthless. I feel like women hate me but I am generally a nice guy (maybe that's my problem) and not as ugly as a lot of dudes I see with gorgeous women. I feel like just giving up at this point.
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Ive been through this shit too. Year after year of just plain old bad luck. Then when I turned 34, I had oppurtunities with three attractive women all at the same time. When it rained, it poured, after a very long drought. For a long time I thought I must be ugly too but its really about being at the right places at the right times with the right people. The only suggestion I can think of is just get out. Make lots of friends and network through them. You can meet women just conducting business too. I dated my real estate agent. I also dated two of my dental assistants. I got laid more from getting braces on my teeth than without them. I would attend classes at a community college that consists primarily of women; like dental assistant, accounting, nursing, or something. Then not only will you be around women, youll get a job too. The only drawback to being around women is that you often attract the wrong ones. Then you become a sexual harassment victim. Its happened to me more than once. Just sayin.
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I didn't date until I was 25. Thought I was a freak of nature, no one would want me, was too shy to try. Finally decided to get out there and after 2 years of constant failure found some success. Confidence is key, either have it, or learn to fake it. The normal methods most people suggest didn't work at all for me - bars, clubs, parties, blind dates, taking classes, networking thru freinds, approach at a park or beach or festival or other public place. I had much better success with group activities and personal ads, this was in the mid 1980s to early 90s so no internet dating.
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When I was young I didnt want to let life pass me by so I tried everything to meet women. But when I got older, I realized that I was almost always frustrated with women's behavior and wasnt worth the effort most of the time. So I eventually gave up. Sex wasnt always that great either. It was risky and lousy sometimes. So I finally learned the best way to live which I think is solitude. I dont need anybody to enjoy movies, video games, books, a long walk, or eating yummy foods. I have peace and quiet, freedom, and no drama. I dont need to depend on other people for a good time and its quite liberating.
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