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Old 05-09-10, 09:59 PM   #31
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I love the types of places you mentioned. Thanks for the motivation I do enjoy all types of music. And I'm a damned good dancer (when I'm alone), or only around people I know. If I could manage to dance in front of strangers I think it would be quite liberating. I usually make excuses not to go to these kinds of places or wait until my 'friends' want to go, which never happens.

I usually go to pubs/lounges, which can actually be more intimidating than clubs because there tend to be a lot of regulars who instantly know you're a newbie and there's no loud music or dancing to distract yourself with. I've also been considering taking a salsa dancing class. In general I need to do more activities that I enjoy, whether or not they lead to relationships.

I think I will try this! I'll let you know if I succeed. Thanks
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Old 05-10-10, 08:31 AM   #32
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How are you doing today? Some really good words of advice here that you have received. I echo them. I just hope that when you will try, you will succeed. We are with you and here for you.
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Old 05-10-10, 11:03 PM   #33
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I feel ya.. I do.. Im 29, Los angeles guy who is so confused how this happened .. Its like lifes slipping me by everyone i see has a girl EVERYONE!! im going nuts!! I think about sucide every couple mintues.. I havent had a girlfriend in 6 freaking years... I know your pain cause I dont understand exactly what I did wrong.. Im nice, loving, good looking enough, all that.. i even bought a fucking used audi thinking it would help... is it my hair? my clothes? more money? etc ??? Nothing worked

But just recently I think ive figured it out for me... Im freaking depressed and no girl is going to want to spend her free time around me.which is obvious right?? But what wasnt to me is that I thought that I could fake not being depressed, I really did for years I would put on a smile and laugh when appropriate and think they were fooled the past 6 freaking years I wasted doing that, they arent buying it! They dont want to be around me and I can see it.

So I figured I needed to change my head space... I got really into the power of possitive thinking the movies, the books .. becasue I thought I could think my way out of this problem.. been doing that now for the past 2 years and thats not working either.

This is my problem automatron it may not be yours..

But right now I'm trying as hard as I can to try every legal drug there is.. anti-depressent, mood stabalizer, stimulats everything .. Ive got a cool doctor and she understands my situation and shes let me try 11 medicines in 65 days .. sounds crazy? my friends think im nuts... tom cruise would have my head if he found out... but the reality is , I need to start enjoying life at least at least a little bit more and I think shell come. Ive heard that a million times before but it never sunk in because Ive got f-ed up neuro chemistry and its not my fault .. I cant use wishful thinking .. Ive got to actually take meds and if you already are on em maybe you should switch em up.
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Old 05-11-10, 01:21 AM   #34
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I'm sick of this shit. I can't find a woman who wants anything to do with me. Having friends isnt enough. I want to be important to someone. And I need sex, now!!! I'm so frustrated. it's so easy for everyone else. I always hoped that I would magically learn to pick up women, but I'm 28 now and just as clueless as I was in highschool. I was born a loser. I'll die alone. I'm on vacation with two friends. I'm in a hotel and constantly hearing our neighbors having sex. it makes me want to go kill myself right now.

The first thing I thought when I read your post was 'too bad you weren't in boston because then we could really wake your neighbors'.

But flirting aside, I get some of what you're going through - wanting to feel loved. Boring one night stands just don't cut it, do they? You can temporarily appease your libido, but then you end up feeling worse because you just screwed someone you probably don't even like all that much, someone who doesn't really care about you.

I hope you don't hurt yourself. Honestly, you're not a loser for wanting to feel special, or for wanting to get laid. It'll happen.

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Hello @ all: I read and reread all of the posts here. I have thought about automatron's initial post and then the replies and really do not know what to say. I wish I could find the right words to say but for this post I just cannot find any. I understand that sex is a normal need that we have in this life, for the most people anyway. The reason it took me so long to post here is because I have the same problem as automatron and do not know what to do about it. It is really hard and not a lot of people, outside of professional counselors or doctors, that can sympathsize with this. Perhaps we should post more about this and get other people's opinions. I would like to hear them for sure. Automatron, I am with you. I cannot offer more than words at this point, but please believe me, I understand you. Steven
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and hugs and thanks to all who posted here. Your words of caring and advice are well taken by me. Thanks again
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I'm not so bad today. Jackson, I am on Cymbalta and just went up to 60 mg on Monday after talking to my psych. I've also had a really bad sore throat due to allergies, so I'm on antibiotics. Betwixt the two, i'm pretty much a zombie. Thanks for the flirtation drkgrk I'll post a more coherent message once my brain starts working again. I have no plans of hurting myself right now.
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I'm happy for you automatron sounds like youre doing a lot better today.. really glad to hear youre on meds too.

I was going to say im doing ok but why bs with you and everybody else.. im on this site anyway .. I dont think ive ever felt this bad in my whole life I pray for change for me and everyone on this site.
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you received some vey good advice. Good job to all!
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I wonít bother posting a new thread. Iíll just keep updating this one for the rest of my shitty (probably short) life. Things went from good to shit in less than 24 hours. Iíve been trying to be more social and do things I enjoy doing to have some reasons not to blow my fucking brains out. But alas, it is all futile.

A girl from high school friended me on facebook. We met for drinks, which I paid for, and she proceeded to bitch about a guy (who I know) from highschool that she recently started dating being an asshole after getting dumped by her boyfriend of 6 years. She constantly hounded me via text/email/phone/etc to talk to her. I felt like things might be going somewhere. then she temporarily deactivates her Facebook account, but continues to text me and tells me she doesnít want to deal with other peopleís stuff. Then she asks me if anything notable happened on Facebook. I told her a mutual friend of ours (from high school) seems to be having trouble. Then she says that he is so sweet to her all the time for no apparent reason and he jokes that they will get married one day and that she should text him. I havenít heard from the bitch since.

I met another fucking waste of space woman on a dating site. She emailed me (a rare occurence for me in my online dating experience) and I respond. We email each other for a couple of weeks. Sheís in Wisconsin but planned on coming to Chicago for the 4th of July. She suggests that we meet up. cool. But sheís bringing her friend with her and her friend wonít come to meet me unless I have a date for her so we can double date. Wtf? I tell her Iíll try to find someone and will get back to her, but really I make no attempt to find anyone because I think sheís a fucking moron for making this requirement of me. Next day she texts me and says her friend only wants to go to some other festival, but maybe we can meet before the end of the month. I respond, ďOk cool. We can try again.Ē But I really have no interest in trying again. What a dumb bitch.

A female friend of mine tells me that sheís quitting her job and moving back home to her parents who live in another state. Of course I have a crush on her, because she has a vagina. I asked her out on a date once, and she rejected me without much thought or asking if it would be a date. This shouldnít really upset me, because itís not like we were going to fuck anyway. It pisses me off though. Another stupid cunt running home to her parents because she canít survive in the real world by herself. I wish I could find a person my age who wasnít a fucking defenseless infant.

Iím taking a writing class. After the first class, some woman emails me to tell me that she liked a piece I read to the class. We email back and forth but she doesnít come to the class. I finally see her in class, and sheís about 30 years older than me. What a waste. I had all these stupid romantic fantasies in my head. Me wooing some woman with my incredible talent. Iím such a fucking retard.

Iím walking down the street sometimes and I just want to sucker punch a stranger and see if I can knock him/her unconscious. Iím pretty sure I could. Iíve been in the god damned gym. I donít care if theyíre old, young, man, woman, nice, mean, whatever. I want somebody to fucking feel pain. The best would be to kill them with one blow. Guns are so unimpressive. I want to strangle someone. Beat them to death with nothing but my fists. Randomly take a cop's gun and blow his brains out before he even knows what's happening. What damned difference does it make. In 70 years, all of us will be dead and our lives wonít really have meant anything. People die everyday. so what if I took out 5-6 more ahead of schedule. The universe will continue. Fuck my job, fuck my family, fuck my friends, fuck my life. Really donít give a fuck right now.
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