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Old 04-13-19, 07:39 PM   #1
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I'm really struggling at the moment. I see my therapist twice a week now. And seeing my psychiatrist next week. I really think that I need to switch one of my medications. I been drinking here and there. But I feel so worthless these days, so insignificant, like I don't really exist. The self hatred is really strong. I been self harming again. I feel like I cannot relate to anyone and that no one can relate to me. I believe I am beyond help and hope. I am too fucked up. I feel very isolated, paranoid about others, think I would be better off dead; suicidal ideations. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Old 04-14-19, 07:38 AM   #2
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hey Lojo..long time we saw a posting from you..most of us have no clue what a severe depression is or can be...
and sure you must be struggling along,but never think you're fighting windmills,my fiend..therapy can help but sometimes it does not,psychiatry will look at your problem and maybe describe different medication,it could be that a different medication really can help you out,so never give up hope,there's a light at everyones tunnel of darkness,feeling worthless means lack of self esteem,confidence and worth..i do not understand why people harm themselves,cutting is no way out=i disagree when you say that you're beyond help and hope,that's putting yourself in a low key position,there is always hope if one believes in it..I think isolation is a good thing if one can take it,i know lots of people who love being loners but don't go down that way of depression...paranoia is a deeper sense of distrust when one thinks you're not liked by anyone,everbody talks and gossips behind your back...do never think about suicide or being better off dead...deep down you're a good person who wants things to change for the better..life is not a dead end street...
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Old 04-14-19, 08:50 PM   #3
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Thanks. When I feel this depressed there is almost nothing that can make me feel better. This is how I know that it is not circumstantial or situational. It feels more clinical. I do things just to pass the time and keep busy, but no matter what I am doing I feel depressed, anxious, worthless, and hopeless. Therapy is not helping but it gets me out of the house and lets me get things off my chest. And my medication is not working. When I do feel good and stable I can do anything and enjoy and appreciate what I am doing. But this is where I am at now. There is also substance abuse to escape but it is only temporary, sometimes I am fine with taking a break and temporarily escaping.
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