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This is a discussion on uhh... yeah... within the Suicide forums, part of the Suicide Forums category; i've thought of suicide more than once a day... i dont know why I couldn't do it, but i did ...

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Old 02-05-13, 10:02 AM   #1
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i've thought of suicide more than once a day... i dont know why I couldn't do it, but i did try it last Jan 3, 2013... I know cause I found the somewhat suicide note I wrote... it had the date on it......
I just recently joined, dunno why i said that
I did asked help from a close friend of mine last year, but then I just started to panic and cry... and I dont want to trouble her anymore... and since then i didnt try asking for help anymore... i dont like crying...
i'm not even sure why i'm posting something like this... since i already know what a lot of people would say...

i could talk about my problems, but then i feel like some spoiled attention seeking brat... which i feel i am but i dont think so... but i'll list some things bothering me now... cause i dont know what else to write... :
Everyday I get scolded by my guardians, even if i did nothing... so everyday there's someone screaming or looking down on me...
I find school very annoying, some people say i'm an introvert (i think i am)
A teacher said to me that i didn't have a stand on things... like if gay marriage is good or bad, what course i'll take in college, things i should care about and so on... and that teacher is very religious and we had a fight because i screamed at her that i didn't believe in god... (got sick and tired of her talking about god will help me, guide and blah blah blah... i'm sorry if i sound offending)
my friends teasing me i want to smash their faces into one another... they're pairing me with a guy i dont even like, teasing about the things i like, laughing at the things i do and yeah....
People complaining about the things I SHOULD care about, but in my perspective I could care so much less... most people would react on why i'm like this...

i conclude i will gain nothing from this... sorry if my english is bad, i dont speak english purely... but i dont mind people complaining about my grammar... most of the time...

one thing i want to ask.... what are the fishes that are appearing now and then... i drag them to the net... but what are they for?? maybe it's me only, or some virus...

Thanks for taking your time reading... i'm new, so just tell me whatever i'm doing is wrong... i'm too lazy to read the TTL guideline thing...
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Old 02-05-13, 10:47 AM   #2
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Hi welcome here. Don't feel bad about expressing yourself here. Your feelings matter. Your life matters. We were all new here once feeling like you do. In the beginning I didn't feel this place would help but I was wrong. So many people have reached out to me touched me with their kindness. I am not the greatest person for advice o your subject. But I do know there are others here that are. I am sorry you feel so bad. You are obviously very young. I know things seem dark for you now but they can change for the better. You have your whole life ahead of you I hope suicide is not an option you choose. The fish are a game they put on here by the way. I dont really know why just something to pass time I guess. I wish you the best.
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Old 02-05-13, 12:13 PM   #3
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oh cool, someone replied... is 16 a young age? ahaha well i'm already graduating, so there's a lot of pressure coming from every where... and i've been experiencing crap since i was kid, so i dont think age is considerable compared w/ experience? well whatever... but thanks dude... there are people who say i'm cheerful, dunno how... ehe
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Old 02-05-13, 01:03 PM   #4
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it's ok you write in here. I feel sometimes like that too but it's ok. You can have good support here. Feel free to express yourself, you will be welcome
I think you are smart. That's part of your problem. Try not to care about your school, cos you worth a lot!
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