I have struggled with depression for more than 2 years now. When i finally got to a psychiatrist i was diagnosed with schizophrenia. When i say i struggled with depression, it was more than that- anxiety, panic attacks, frequent suicidal thoughts, hallucinations (a few times). I have taken treatment since. Shuffled through a couple of specialists till i was comfortable with one. Started taking treatment (anti-depressants and anti-psychotics). It took a while to work but it finally did (on large doses). I have been doing much better since a year but feeling a little down since a couple of days ( anxious and struggling with being in a good mood). In the past few months i have been getting these sudden urges of hurting myself. These urges have been recent and i have not felt like this since a long time. I do not feel suicidal all the time in general unless i see a clear opportunity. I guess its more like an impulsive feeling that comes over me which i have to struggle with great difficulty.
I must mention i have been reducing my dose of medications since a past few months. Is this the clear reason for me feeling this way again? I was on a very high dose of medications which used to drain most of my energy through the day and keep me in bed most of the time. I am still struggling to find a balance. In a few aspects i have been feeling much better. I can finally hear myself think again but these sudden urges come over me and its difficult. I appreciate help provided in any means if you have come to this point in my post.