my mum is a doctor and is always out and my dad has server personality disorders, he is also violent and abusiv .he does not work and also has siocal phobia, therefor at home 24/7. to make matters worse he cant let go of enything and has deep seeded hatred for everything and everyone constatly thinking people are conspiring and plotting agenst him. i'm in my last year school and am struggling with all this work on top of home life. my mum and i talk about our problems alot and she is like my best friend, having had a difficult past with people giving me up and being abandoned, then being here my mum thinks tht i am strong and can get thrgh eny pain or neglect. i have know for along time how weak i feel inside never daring to show it but i fear now after starting to self harm alot tht i am at my limit. i know tht i would cause pain to thouse few who love me but i hate myself, mylife and this lie. recently i have been thinking about suicide alot and even tryed hanging myself. all my work is mounting up and i cant cope pls i need advise !

This is really hard but I know you can do reach out to your mum, trust and believe that she is there for you, she loves you. She wouldnt want to see you hurting she would want to help you as you seems to have a really good friendship.

Please tell your mum or someone how you are feeling or write something down and give it to them, if this is hard. Your life is so important and you have so many things to live for its just hard when you lose sight of this and everything just seems so black,

Keep posting and let us know how you are.

Cara, You seem like a very strong person because you've survived for this long. Dont try and bring yourself down or submit yourself to that weak feeling. I know how hard it can seem sometimes, but you have to believe in your own strenght and you mom's love. Keep talking to your mom. Tell her how you feel, and how you're feeling inside. Do you have anyone else who is stable that you can try and reach out to?

thankyou i fell a little better after jioning , their are lovley poeple. and yes, my best friend who i tell everything...i dont like to burden her to much as she has bad problems of her own, i think shes on this site, somwhere.
no but thankyou i just felt like recently everything is just crushing me and i dont now how to escape.