the moments when i was happy were always followed by the reasons of why i was lied to, or used, or so stupidly taken advantage. im so full and empty at the same time how can this be?? i hate myself i hate myself MORE than as everyone in my life has hated me!!!! i tired to fit in and i was sometimes allowed because every one needed the clown, the bumbling idiot who so desperately wanted to be loved and to love or to be a friend and have friends than i was the perfect patsy. i was outside looking in but now i have accepted the cold, its my friend now and its always been here with me. i tried to do good i really really did im sorry for being a failure i guess it was just my fate

My dear friend, people will lie to you and betray you, this is just the course of life.... Unfortunately.
It is hard to get up I know it is but you have to believe that you can because then you will!! !

I believe in you!!! You can do it, I know you can!!


HUGS

hey hun, im sorry your feeling bad right now, i hope your ok.. your not a failure.. its there loss they didnt realise what a great person you are, i hope you realise that..

soon the nightmare can end, and a new life can being.

you just have to find out how :)