I'm getting my meds filled today and I'm scared. I'm scared of what I might do with four full bottles of pills. I don't know what to do. I wish this sould just go away. I'm just so tired.

Ummm..... if you are worried about having that many pills on you at once, can you have someone else manage them? Like boyfriend possibly?

I'm going to the hospital. I can''t be trusted.

((((((laneblade))))))
Do what you need to do in order to take care of yourself. Let us know how you are when you can. I'm glad you are getting help.

((((Laneblade ...))))

Thank you for letting us know. I'm glad you had the courage to go, even though you were crying. I'm glad you had family to take you.

I am SO hoping the outpatient treatment will help!

And don't worry about asking for help. Remember ALL of those people YOU helped? Every single one of them had to ask for help from you. We all have had our turn on the "down side." It's what makes this board special.

A part of living is reaching out and helping each other along. Let others carry you the same way you carry them.

What a courageous thing to do! Stay safe!!!

(((((laneblade)))))
we're here if u need us

I'm back. I got evaluated and the suggested inpatient but after they told me what all it entailed I wasn't sure I liked that idea. No personal belongings, no phone calls, visitors only twice a day, no shoestrings. No shoestrings? Really? Anyway.... I'm going in the outpatient program monday and I won't be alone all weekend. Someone will be looking after my meds. You'd be surprised how a family will come together when they know that something is wrong. They don't want to wait until it's too late. Mine didn't anyway. It's still hard as hell but I have taken steps that will make it impossible to do anything stupid. I can only pray for something to happen naturally. So please god. turn your head. Any God! Let me die.

((((hugs)))) so sorry u are going thru this
i'm glad u are safe

Come to chat laney, and I'll play some Beck for you.