JackieBlue, How are you doing today? I just read your post and that from Tigerlover, which was a very good response. So I am wondering about you and how you are feeling now.
I have had way too many times in my life when I have felt and said the exact same thing. It is always on my lips with me wondering when that day will come. I want to argue with myself and say that it won't, but I know it isn't true. And then I realize that for as many years as I have said this, I AM still here. So maybe this is hope? I don't know, but if it is even a tiny bit possible, then I'll stay hopeful. I know I can't expect my happiness to come from someone else, I have to make it myself for myself. So I try to do that. I am so lonely there are days when my heart hurts so bad that I just go to bed and hope tomorrow will be better. So I'm trying. Maybe if you could consider to keep trying, maybe we can help each other in some way. I'm willing if you are.