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I'm fucking done. That's it. I'm too sad and lonely to be worth anything in my life. There are many people like me. Many people can fill the same roles as me as a friend, barman etc. I am one of many.

If I make it to Monday I'll be fucking surprised.

i will talk to you. just please dont try anything. ((((((hugs)))))) obviously people care about you because we dont even know you and care. :) i want to say that it will get better but i hate when people do that to me so ill just say that i hope it gets better...

Have you been looking for any other type of employment?

I know you have been stressed and upset over not having a job, but I think working in a bar is one of the worst jobs for you right now. I really think it has been making you feel worse. It's not a good environment for you.

Thing is, I'm supposed to be moving into my new house in a week or two, so I need a secure job. And this is secure, as I'm one of the best people here. :(

Also I did something really stupid last night...that was completely out of character that I feel really guilty about...

Basically this girl kept coming up to the bar, saying hi and stuff and saying "hey beautiful" when I passed her collecting glasses...and I got angry later from my drunk mate and other drunk people..she came over and grabbed my chest and nipple crippled me, it didn't hurt much, but I jokingly said "ok my turn" I hadn't planned on doing it..but she shoves her very very well endowed chest at me...and says "go on then" and I just did it...

She looked shocked..I thought I was about to get arrested... She then laughed and I got her a drink after..

But I can't help feel guilty..my mates here say I should just forget it.

But I can't :( it was so out of character...I don't like how I act when I'm angry :( or when I'm upset...I don't like me in general...and I feel fucking awful.

I am sorry :(

I'm such a twat.

That's my thoughts on today. I hate myself. I don't want to feel this way anymore. And I want to take the easy way out.

My dependency on alcohol to get me through situations is increasing. I am becoming aware of it. Yet I haven't stopped. In fact all I've done I move away from my usual temptress, Kraken Rum, onto a different body of alcohol, Hendricks Gin.

:(

My dependency on alcohol to get me through situations is increasing. I am becoming aware of it. Yet I haven't stopped. In fact all I've done I move away from my usual temptress, Kraken Rum, onto a different body of alcohol, Hendricks Gin.

:(

Awesome. My phone posted my message twice.

Everything slows down when I drink.

I don't have work for 3.5 hours, so I'm fine with what I'm drinking now. But I dread the day when I have too much. And here I am having complained about my friend not being able to handle alcohol.

Pot calling the kettle black. Fuck. If the sun wasn't out I'd probably kill myself.

Gin and tonic is so refreshing in the sun.