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Old 02-08-13, 05:02 AM   #1
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I'm looking back to when I was 16 years old - years ago.

When things began to go wrong.

I know all the answers now - worked it all out.

But its just all to late now..........................
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Old 02-08-13, 05:14 AM   #2
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You can't go back to being 16 and fix whatever might have gone wrong then, but that's not to say that a whole load of resulting damage can't be undone. The things you have learned wrong can be learned right.

Life changes with every single decision we make. Some of the changes are just more dramatic than others. Your life may be different than it could have been but that doesn't mean it's over. Different doesn't have to be worse. It might be right now but it doesn't have to stay that way. If you can take wrong paths you can also take right ones.

Don't count out your life based on what was merely a fraction of it. Even people in prison for life can find reasons to live and it would be hard to argue that they didn't lose a great deal to a bad decision.
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You can't go back to being 16 and fix whatever might have gone wrong then, but that's not to say that a whole load of resulting damage can't be undone. The things you have learned wrong can be learned right.

Life changes with every single decision we make. Some of the changes are just more dramatic than others. Your life may be different than it could have been but that doesn't mean it's over. Different doesn't have to be worse. It might be right now but it doesn't have to stay that way. If you can take wrong paths you can also take right ones.

Don't count out your life based on what was merely a fraction of it. Even people in prison for life can find reasons to live and it would be hard to argue that they didn't lose a great deal to a bad decision.
Thats exactly it - it was about going down the wrong path.

I had problems and issues and lacked the maturity to deal with it - added to that I had no parental or family guidance around me.

16 years old - things were still fresh and ready to put things right

But by 17 years old - 18 years old - 19 years old........................

Your life has spiralled down the wrong path.

Instead of developing my life - I was screwing up my life.

All very very regretable.

My life today - is deeply effected by that momemteum created many years ago.

All deep regret.
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Old 02-08-13, 06:08 AM   #4
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My story is not dissimilar to your own. My parents moved abroad when I was in my late teens. Everything that I went through I dealt with on my own and hence I dealt with everything in really crappy ways. I coped by means of distraction and fell into drinking, gambling and over spending. I went massively into debt and increased my problems tenfold. Where I am now has most definitely been affected by the path that I travelled down. However, my life isn't over, it's just different than it might have been. I could have gone to university, I could be earning more money, I could be married, I could be many things. However, I can still be many things. I'm 35, I'm not 18 anymore but that doesn't mean that there are no opportunities left for me. Maybe I can't do some things but I can still do many things. I'm not ready to give up on life right now, whereas 5yrs ago I most definitely was. I was in the deepest of holes.

If I could recommend anything it would be to try and cut away any chains that are dragging you down into the mire. The single biggest chain for me was the debt, I needed to cut that loose. Debt was only a symptom of the depression but I couldn't begin to deal with that while being crushed by pressure. If you have any similar chains holding you down then that is where you need to begin. The solution may not be easy, it may not be pleasant, but if there is one then take it and ride it out. Sometimes you do have to touch the floor before you can climb back up. What I did will affect me for years to come but at least I can breathe again.

If you have no chains that are holding you back then you are only chained by the past and you need to try and let that go. It's done. You did what you did because of where you were at the time. You did your best, even if your best was far from good. You didn't have a set of instructions and a tonne of support. Think about what you want to do from here, whether that be pure indulgence or long term planning. Look to those things as your motivation. Life can and will throw some curve balls your way and some of those might offer new directions for you to go. To be honest, I like being indulgent. I like those things in life that are all about me, whether it's sitting on a beach and watching the sea or driving some exciting car on a beautiful and challenging road. I intend to do a lot more of those things. I don't care if they are just moments. I'm happy with moments.
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