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Old 02-06-11, 07:02 AM   #1
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I'm like the definition of an insecure guy. I'm only 5'3 and weighing 100 pounds this body has turned my life into hell. I'm so shy and weak. I'm never confident in society, nobody sees me as a man, I don't blame them, I'm just a [email protected]($# weakling. Even my body proportions are messed up. Like, my fingers are short, my nose is big, my body is thin.. And the look on my face is always exhausted.. I get tired after a simple walk, so I don't even go out anymore, I live with my mom and sit around in my room for days, trying to avoid any possible human contact. I just wanna end it, but I'm too weak to do that, also scared. However, continuing this pathetic existence is even worse. I just wish I was never born. Fucking embarrassment. Everybody expects a man to be tall, buff, confident and shit.. But I'll never be that person. I haven't even matured properly, everything in me is small and child-looking. I just hate my parents for creating me. Every simple challenge in life turns into a disaster for me. I know you must be thinking, I should stop whining and do something bla bla bla..but I don't even want to, I've given up, nothing's gonna change my self-esteem or make me 6 feet tall. I'm stuck in this body for life and I want out.

Is there any way to die quickly and painlessly?

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Old 02-06-11, 09:27 AM   #2
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I'm like the definition of an insecure guy. I'm only 5'3 and weighing 100 pounds this body has turned my life into hell. I'm so shy and weak. I'm never confident in society, nobody sees me as a man, I don't blame them, I'm just a [email protected]($# weakling. Even my body proportions are messed up. Like, my fingers are short, my nose is big, my body is thin.. And the look on my face is always exhausted.. I get tired after a simple walk, so I don't even go out anymore, I live with my mom and sit around in my room for days, trying to avoid any possible human contact. I just wanna end it, but I'm too weak to do that, also scared. However, continuing this pathetic existence is even worse. I just wish I was never born. Fucking embarrassment. Everybody expects a man to be tall, buff, confident and shit.. But I'll never be that person. I haven't even matured properly, everything in me is small and child-looking. I just hate my parents for creating me. Every simple challenge in life turns into a disaster for me. I know you must be thinking, I should stop whining and do something bla bla bla..but I don't even want to, I've given up, nothing's gonna change my self-esteem or make me 6 feet tall. I'm stuck in this body for life and I want out.

Is there any way to die quickly and painlessly?
You know what, everybody is different. Who says you have to be 6 feet tall to be a man? If you are insecure about being skinny why don't you try hitting the gym? If you are skeptical about working out around people even just do push ups and lift weights at home. I know how much exercising helped me improve my self esteem. You don't have to be jealous of guys that are 6 feet tall and huge, who cares about them. Just focus on what is best for you, and remember suicide does not solve anything. Im a shy guy too and I don't like dealing with most people. I just stopped caring what people think of me. I am a short guy too and before I started working out I had no muscle at all and was really fat. After spending a couple years at the gym I lost weight and put on a ton of muscle, but it wasnt without a lot of hard work. Like I said exercise helps a lot, and it certainly helped me to become a lot more confident. If you want I can give you some advice on how to bulk up. I mean if I can do it you can too, I was the most out of shape guy in the world. Just don't give up, and get this suicide crap out of your head. Suicide not only leaves all of your problems unresolved, but creates a whole new set of problems for every person in your family who would have to deal with you killing yourself. You don't have to be the really skinny guy if you don't want to be. Just start working out for an hour a day and you will see how fast the body can change. If you are interested id like to help you out, pm me if you want a few tips on how to gain muscle.

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Old 04-09-11, 03:34 PM   #3
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Hey Alex,

Your story made me really sad and even more so because I can relate with you. I am also really skinny and weak and I've never been looked on like a man, since men are big and strong and confident, nothing like me. I've thought about suicide so many times, just like you, and I felt I didn't have the guts to do it, again just like you. But there's one thing I can tell you - it's not about being tall, because I am quite tall and that doesn't change much, in fact - I am jealous of both men taller and much shorter than me who all look much better than I do. Those who say you should go to gym and start excercising don't understand that there's nothing more embarassing than being exposed with the body you hate in front of other people and especially gym type men and besides it doesn't work for us that way anyway, we wouldn't be skinny in the first place if it did. But the one thing I can tell you is that you should nevertheless try eating more and try excercising at home at least half an hour a day five days a week, after a month or so your appetite will increase and you will see some body changes and after some more time you will maybe even be able to go to gym and not feel like shit in front of everyone there. Please try, because I am trying too, and hoping it'll get better.

Please don't give it all up, it doesn't mean much, but you are not alone in this.
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sure aren't. We all have our own insecurities I'm sure. I'm 6', skinny and still feel really similar to you. I get my confidence other ways, but I should start working out. I think it's a great idea. You need to seek help and make changes before things will change. And you must want to a tiny bit right? Or else you wouldn't be here. Noone's gonna tell you how to kill yourself painlessly. It'/d be breaking the rules of the board. Go take some 5htp, eat better, workout and I think you'll be doing just fine. Do you smoke or drink? Approx what age group are you? under 18, or older? It can be rough!
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Old 04-09-11, 04:27 PM   #5
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I feel you bud. I am 35 years old. I look 20. Can't grow facial hair. Not hairy or masculine at all. Feel like a boy in a mans world and feel like I still have to sit at the kids table instead of hanging with grown ups.

Not sure of your age. 19? still time for growth. I used to be really small and skinny as well. But I forced myself to workout. A couple of years dedicated to the gym right now will be better than doing nothing. I know it's rough when you don't feel like moving. But if you do nothing now in 2 years you will be in exactly in the same place. I managed to bulk up over time although I still look like a friggin boy in the face. I also need to get back to the gym. Been away far too long. Can't tell you how great it feels after a workout. Especially when results start to happen.

Also get to your doctor. Ask him for testostrone-coristol-hgh test. If they are on the low side demand you get them raised. If he won't ask him to refer you to another doctor. Most doctors won't increase your levels if you are 19. Most won't increase them at any age. They don't understand the importance of them.

My levels were all on the low side of normal. At 25 they still were that way and still are. Just had them checked again. My doctor won't increase my levels because they fall within the normal range but just on the verge of being too low. I am now shopping for a new doctor.

I firmly believe that when a human doesn't feel good there is a chemical balance of somekind. Everything is connected.
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alright, now this may come off completely fucked up... but bare with me... just because you're 5'3 and skinny does not mean anything... seriously.. you could be 6'1 200lb and still feel like you're inferior... or not "manly"... you could be 35 with no facial hair or 16 with a full on lumberjack... but that doesnt matter... and i say this becuase i am, and this is the part that i wanted to avoid but feel it is important to share.... i am 6'1 at 205... and you know what? my self esteem is in the shitter... completely... i know that getting taller is impossible after a certain age, but the other features are possible to change... about 4 yrs ago i weighed in at an awesome 156.... tall and skinny... yay... real manly... it took some time for me to filll out.. and even now, i completely insecure... i am hesitant to go to the gym, cus i feel out of place... that and i'm not very strong... at all... but i have learned that sure there are assholes in the gym who look down on guys but for the most part, people dont care... yet even though i know this, i still am weary about it... so i try to go during hours when the gym is less crowded and the people there, are the ones there that are in my boat...

also, back to feeling good about yourself... it takes work... seriously... and instead of being your hasrhest critic, try being your biggest supporter... sounds stupid, but it does work at times...
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Old 04-09-11, 09:35 PM   #7
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I totally feel your pain, man. I'm only about 1 inch taller and 15 pounds heavier than you, look like an 11 year old, and I go through the same exact shit pretty much. I am treated like a goddamn child by my peers and even family sometimes, at my shit job I have to work 2 times harder than my co-workers, I was always being treated like a moron and weakling in school, been turned down for more jobs than most anyone can imagine, I can't even work out because I was in a car accident when I was 11 and it messed up my collar bone and my self esteem has been in the shitter ever since I was a little kid. My friends have even made me the butt of their "short people" jokes. I'm giving myself 4 more years to live for various reasons.

Just wanted to say I know how you feel and I know what you're going through. People can be so cruel, especially when they can't see the pain short males living in western countries feel.
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Wow, I didnt know this thread was still alive...It's been 2 months yet most replies were posted today lol)

I'm not in a position to afford any gym, I'm broke basically. I can't eat alot for the same reason. I've been at this impasse for 2 years now..Can't seem to find a way out.

Actually I'm not in any of the western countries yet, which makes it worse.. Here it's probably like living in the ghetto: filthy streets, people treating each other like crap for no reason, everybody's always pissed and mean..unemployment rate is huge, corruption and bribery seem to be everywhere... It may not sound much different from some places in the western world, but idk..

WTFanime, it's really disappointing that you can't get a job because of your height.. THat's exactly what I"m worried about.. And have you tried wearing lifts ? I use them all the time now, it helps a little..

Anyway. I still have one last hope and I'm waiting to see if it works out..
Don't know what else to say.. I'm still alive for now...

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WTFanime, it's really disappointing that you can't get a job because of your height.. THat's exactly what I"m worried about.. And have you tried wearing lifts ? I use them all the time now, it helps a little..

Anyway. I still have one last hope and I'm waiting to see if it works out..
Don't know what else to say.. I'm still alive for now...
Nobody will ever ADMIT there's height discrimination... these shady ass conniving favoritist prejudiced interviewers and HR people hide behind this delusion that they're "fair and objective" and nothing but, yet from what I've experienced, the opposite is true. It's all a bunch of bullshit; and trust me when I say that since people are running out of people to belittle without looking like complete racists, homophobes, or just plain insensitive, there's always the "short male" card they always have to fall back on. Remember, every (crappy) society needs somebody (or a group of people) to belittle so that they can feel "better" about themselves. Well, sometimes I get sympathetic comments and non-verbal cues that show sometimes people feel SORRY for me because I'm short, but most (especially women) are just ruthless. When you're a short male (and I'm sure you've experienced this too) you have to work two times harder, be two times smarter, two times more talented, two times better looking, two times quicker... and the list goes on and on.

For a more detailed description of what I'm talking about, look up "lookism" and "nepotism" on either google or Youtube.

I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but unless you're lucky and/or just plain genetically gifted in some sense, it doesn't get better as you age. The work world and college are both repeats of high school doublespeak with different packaging.

Anyways, I hope your trump card works out.
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Omg,I just googled what women in my country think regarding short guys, it was a truly horrid and shocking revelation. I mean, I thought women in the west were shallow, damn was I ever more wrong...now I'm even more disgusted by such straight=up hate from my own people..They simply wish us to die, and there was one guy who asked a question and everybody laughed and taunted him for being 5'9 like it was some sort of a curse and how could a man ever be 5'9..like it's sooo embarrassing, eventually that drove him to surgery.. How can I ever feel good after all this... I've never felt so down in my life.. I can't wait to leave this place..
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