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Old 12-20-14, 06:23 AM   #31
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Old 01-01-15, 06:55 PM   #32
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Another year has gone by. Another year in my living nightmare. So many years I have tried and hoped for something better. Only to find my life crumbling even more in every way.

So now I hope for a permanent solution this year. Death for me will be a blessed release. If I would pass away while sleeping, that would be fantastic. But I don't think it will happen because nothing ever works out for me anyway. It just ALL blows up in my face.

Or maybe when circumstances become favourable and society turns to chaos, I could try to achieve a permanent solution. And by that I mean actively ending my own life. People do it all the time, well, so can I.

This is probably one of last songs I then will be listening to. It is absolutely beautiful and strikes a chord with me. It had me in bitter, bitter tears today.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9mqbqMbHk4

My life is over. Looking back I now know it ended a long time ago. But I kept trying for a better life for so many years. It was all in vain. Please dear God, take me home, take me home tonight.
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Another year has gone by. Another year in my living nightmare. So many years I have tried and hoped for something better. Only to find my life crumbling even more in every way.

So now I hope for a permanent solution this year. Death for me will be a blessed release. If I would pass away while sleeping, that would be fantastic. But I don't think it will happen because nothing ever works out for me anyway. It just ALL blows up in my face.

Or maybe when circumstances become favourable and society turns to chaos, I could try to achieve a permanent solution. And by that I mean actively ending my own life. People do it all the time, well, so can I.

This is probably one of last songs I then will be listening to. It is absolutely beautiful and strikes a chord with me. It had me in bitter, bitter tears today.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9mqbqMbHk4

My life is over. Looking back I now know it ended a long time ago. But I kept trying for a better life for so many years. It was all in vain. Please dear God, take me home, take me home tonight.
I hope you don't do anything stupid. Your life is very valuable. I feel the same every day but we have to keep going.
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Old 01-02-15, 07:55 AM   #34
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Keep fighting Heart, you are good person.
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Old 01-03-15, 10:29 AM   #35
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FromThe Heart. My life is a lot like yours. You're definitely not alone in this. I just go through the motions of living. I'm just waiting to die. I just try to make the best of it. Nice cat picture by the way.
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Old 01-03-15, 07:24 PM   #36
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I can totally relate to this. I have no motivation anymore. I'm just waiting for death to take me. All I can do is go through each day.

I wish I had an answer for both of us, but all I can give is a hug. You're not alone.
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Old 01-03-15, 10:17 PM   #37
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Thanks everybody for reaching out. It means a lot to me.

I know it may sound harsh to some but I am just trying to find a solution. My life of agony will end this year hopefully. Then I will go to a place of light and love. Where peace and tranquility reign. I have read about near death experiences and am deeply touched. It is a world way beyond our comprehension and knowledge. I know in my heart that is where I want to go. It is where I belong.

I can give fate a little hand, in a way that the people, who will find me, won't be traumatized. I am sorry if I offended anyone, I don't mean to.
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Old 01-04-15, 07:22 AM   #38
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Leave the nature do its cause, please. You can still enjoy life, even for a bit. Dont shorten your life, let it go on, there is always some sunshine in the day, sometimes we are just blinded by darkness and cant see it, but trust me, some sunshine of happiness is around you. People care about you, please keep fighting.
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Old 01-05-15, 06:12 PM   #40
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nsdimitrije and Dave86, thank you.
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