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Old 11-21-14, 06:10 PM   #21
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I hope you start feeling good.
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Old 11-24-14, 05:36 PM   #22
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Thanks everybody for your well wishes. I really appreciate it.

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Only reasons why WWI started were, Austrian prince Franz Ferdinands killing, which happened in Bosnia and human greed for more territory and wealth. No meteor affected it.
I agree it was the first shot of WW1 that was fired. However, dramatic changes in climate or naturel disasters can do a lot of harm to society. In terms of housing, infrastructure, draught, famine etc. People can become stressed out and start riots. Or become very patriotic and violent with all sorts of horrible consequences.

But I don't know if there is any real science to it. Maybe like you say these events are unrelated and it is all just a coincidence.

However I am still scared to watch the news or read the papers. I am totally paranoid about naturel disasters or signs of economic collapse. But it is absolutely stupid that I am because I have absolutely no control over those things. I also need to realise the worst usually doesn't happen. And here the streets are calm, there is no hyperinflation, there is no social unrest....my obsessing is just a waste of energy. I just have no idea how to stop it . I feel like such a fool.
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Old 11-25-14, 10:55 AM   #23
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Is it possible to focus on good stuff? Lets start from TV. You can delete all channels that feature "news" and such and memorize others, animal channels, history, kids channels and such.
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Old 11-27-14, 03:14 PM   #24
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Hey nsdimitrije, I have been thinking about your suggestion. I think it is worth a try. I will ignore the news of the world, economy etc. I will stick to sports and maybe some local news. I am still in doubt about history, but I will sure add some comedy, nature and reality show.

Ignorance is bliss they say, so maybe I have to give that a go.

I am easily triggered. Accidentally I heard that a big company is going to fire a few thousand employees. So I am thinking right away, they are going to steal and rob to survive. They will come to my house, abuse me and steal my money and food.

But those are just my fears, I am so scared of all the bad things that COULD happen. So basically it is all in my head. A lot of the times my fears don't happen in real life. I have to keep that in mind, too.
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Old 11-28-14, 03:38 AM   #25
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Good luck. :)
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Old 11-29-14, 04:22 PM   #26
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Also very important: I need to stop worrying and stop obsessing about things I have absolutely zero control over. It is just a waste of valuable energy and I make things even harder for myself than they already are. I am such an asshole sometimes, good grief.

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Thanks, nsdimitrije. I will need it.
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Old 11-29-14, 04:42 PM   #27
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Yup, i am glad to hear you are motivated. You will feel better. :)

Best wishes as always.
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Old 12-07-14, 04:09 AM   #28
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I am trying not to worry about things I have no control over. There is a lot of stuff going on in the world that could influence my life in a dramatic way. But I don't have any control over that, so I need to stop worrying about what is going on in the world. Besides, it is an absolute waste of energy.

Instead I have to focus on what I can control. I am trying to improve my sleep, for example, because it is still not refreshing at all. On the contrary, I still wake up exhausted and sometimes even nauseous. And then it only adds to my depression and paranoia instead of making things better. But when I sleep I get some time out of this life of mine as well, so that is positive.

Secondly, I am, just like everybody else, here on earth for a limited time. Whether things are going great in life or we have to suffer, sooner or later, it will all end. I have to keep that in mind too. Nothing is forever, happiness and pleasure is not but neither is depression and suffering.

So when I can keep those things in mind, maybe I can take the rough edges off a bit.
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Empty your mind, positive stuff (its easily to find positive stuff now that Christmas is closing in) and do your best in cleaning out your mind, things out of your control aint your worry.
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Old 12-19-14, 07:56 PM   #30
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Hurting so bad right now... Just wish I was never born in the first place.

Maybe tonight, I will fall asleep and hopefully go home at last. Dear God, please take me home. I don't want to live anymore.
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