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Old 07-09-12, 11:26 PM   #331
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Hey autumndawn,

I saw where you posted on my thread. This is the first day I've checked my thread in weeks. I don't really converse over the forum anymore because I've ultimately decided that I don't want help. However, I can see that you carry many of the same thoughts and feelings as I do, and I wanted to drop by the thread and say thanks for commenting and sharing that. If you would like to start using this thread as your own, please feel free to do so. That goes for anyone and everyone here as well. I will not be using it anymore for the reasons I mentioned above.

Once again, thank you very much.
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Old 07-10-12, 10:46 AM   #332
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I've ultimately decided that I don't want help.
I know you don't want help Fornever, which is your decision and it's fine. You said that what you do want is understanding. I believe that people on this forum would give you (and have given you) understanding, because a lot of them have felt similarly to the way you've been feeling. That's why most people are here.

It can be hard for me (and maybe others) to hold back on helping, because for me, it's my nature. But I realize that lots of times, helping means just listening and being there, and understanding.
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Please don't go fornever. I don't want you to feel bad. To me, I feel like your mood has fluctuated throughout this thread. I could be wrong. I want you to be better. And if that means help, then please accept it. I don't want you to leave like this. I'll worry. If you must leave, I want it to be on a good note. Please don't leave like this. I understand how you feel.
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Old 08-07-12, 06:40 PM   #334
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Hey fornever.

I know this thread is old but I just wanted to leave my thoughts. I just read through all 34 pages of this thread.. I was feeling depressed as hell a few hours ago so I got online and stumbled upon this thread. I feel a lot better now after reading through this. Dude, you said over and over again that you have no gift and that you're worthless. But that's a lie. You have the gift of helping others. There're a lot of heartless b*stards in this world. But I read some of your posts on other people's threads and it's so obvious that whatever your own problems are, you're a caring person and your life is precious. So I guess I just wanted to thank you for helping me tonight, even though I know that that was purely incidental.

Also, I'm hooked by you talking about your guitar playing. Are you still into playing? I know you mentioned Iron Maiden... I saw Maiden and Dream Theater a couple years ago and it was one of the best shows I have ever seen! Although i still think Janick is a bit needless... oh well! And the Doors is also my all time favorite band, so I feel an instant kinship with you there as well! I really hope you keep playing. A couple years ago, I went through a phase of about six or seven months where all I could think about was killing myself. Playing the piano and keyboard was what kept me alive. I would literally spend four or five days straight (without sleeping) listening to ELP or Dream Theater or Gentle Giant and trying to learn those parts. It kept me sane. Whatever you do, don't lose touch with your music. We all need a hobby or something to give us the fire to live.

I don't know what's happened in the month since you last posted... but I hope you're doing okay! Cheers dude.

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(Oh, check out Opeth if you aren't familiar with them already. They have occasional harsh vocals which I know you don't like, but instrumentally they're absolutely brilliant.)

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That was a beautiful post, Opeth. I'm glad you are doing better now
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Hey fornever.

I know this thread is old but I just wanted to leave my thoughts. I just read through all 34 pages of this thread.. I was feeling depressed as hell a few hours ago so I got online and stumbled upon this thread. I feel a lot better now after reading through this. Dude, you said over and over again that you have no gift and that you're worthless. But that's a lie. You have the gift of helping others. There're a lot of heartless b*stards in this world. But I read some of your posts on other people's threads and it's so obvious that whatever your own problems are, you're a caring person and your life is precious. So I guess I just wanted to thank you for helping me tonight, even though I know that that was purely incidental.

Also, I'm hooked by you talking about your guitar playing. Are you still into playing? I know you mentioned Iron Maiden... I saw Maiden and Dream Theater a couple years ago and it was one of the best shows I have ever seen! Although i still think Janick is a bit needless... oh well! And the Doors is also my all time favorite band, so I feel an instant kinship with you there as well! I really hope you keep playing. A couple years ago, I went through a phase of about six or seven months where all I could think about was killing myself. Playing the piano and keyboard was what kept me alive. I would literally spend four or five days straight (without sleeping) listening to ELP or Dream Theater or Gentle Giant and trying to learn those parts. It kept me sane. Whatever you do, don't lose touch with your music. We all need a hobby or something to give us the fire to live.

I don't know what's happened in the month since you last posted... but I hope you're doing okay! Cheers dude.

Opeth5150
(Oh, check out Opeth if you aren't familiar with them already. They have occasional harsh vocals which I know you don't like, but instrumentally they're absolutely brilliant.)
Wow. I don't know what to say. I'm completely touched. It makes me happy to know that something I did touched another's life and helped them through hard times. I know I needed friends to get through some of the bad times. And music was also something I went back to to help me deal with things as well. Thank you for posting here my friend! I'm so happy you found some comfort here. Don't you give up either! I hope you find what you are looking for in life. Thanks again for posting!
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