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Old 07-20-14, 07:36 PM   #1
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Well title says it all, i do my best to stay positive, i cant. The moment i feel some improvement in my mental state, something has to beat me down so that i fall even harder. Truth is no one cares about me, its because i dont deserve to be cared about. The more i try to be good nice or polite, the more world tells me to fuck off and stop caring.Every value that has been implemented in me through my life at this point seems wrong. To every person that i have spoken or written to, i gave a small piece of my heart, my soul. I think all thats left of me now is empty shell that wants to feel love, i have given everything i had to people and got nothing in return, now i am just an empty shell. World is filled with hate and all that hate is being poor down on me, i used to feel that i dont deserve it, now i realize that i do deserve it. I am a bad,weak, pathetic person, that no matter how much tries to help everyone ends up bringing pain to them

Went to a walk today, and sat on bench, then read some hurtful things made towards me, which slightly hurted me, and then i started to cry (i am very sensitive), 3 girls just passed by me and said how pathetic and laughed. They are correct my life is pathetic, i dont deserve it.

I have no one that cares about me anywhere,not real world not virtual, i am alone. I think i will try to call suicide line, but i dont know number, nor i think it will help.
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Hi there.

This is just my opinion of course. I think you do indeed try to always be positive. I think you're polite much of the time. You do give a lot to people (certainly here).

Its not your job to try and save everyone here, although you try. I read what you write. We all read hurtful things here. Wasn't just a few weeks ago YOU told me not to take things online too seriously. Of course, when it happens to you, it does change things, I know that. I think you are sensitive. I am too. Although, a bit less than I was in the past.

You know, sometimes rather than try to be so positive, you could be blunt if its called for. I myself, appreciate the blunt honest truth.

Stay strong, stay strong.
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Old 07-20-14, 08:07 PM   #3
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You are not pathetic. Don't give up on yourself.
You need to talk this out with someone professional
Fight for yourself make all of the mean people wrong.
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Old 07-20-14, 10:07 PM   #4
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I agree with Dave and Gene. Your not alone, at least not here. You have seen that for yourself not that long ago.
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Giving up is not an option, put that in your head,remember it,write it down,become obsessed with that though.,this shall pass as well
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Old 07-21-14, 04:22 PM   #7
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Thank you all for your replies, means a lot to me. I just have to strengthen my personality, everything easily affects me. I dont know, i kind of feel like worn out clothes, thats tossed aside when not needed.

Its funny, the mood changes, how i swing from one side to other side swiftly.New day new dawn, i guess it is like that.

I must put some serious work in myself, i am really glad you guys are here to support me. Big to all.

Also big thanks to Ella and other moderators, who edited my post to sound more decent, and deleted some stuff that i shouldnt have said and who along with other moderators tries to maintain this site, to be a shelter for everyone.
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