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Old 07-25-14, 03:56 PM   #1
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I'm 44 years old and have suffered chronic depression since i was about 14yrs old. I'm a non-religious realist. I believe in reality and nothing more. I've reached my tolerance limit and finally thought I had the bravery to end it, however, I was mistaken, as I'm still typing.
Maybe someone can explain why I can attempt and still be here. I'm now even more depressed as I have saved this for over four months, waiting for the right moment, and when it presented itself, I was ready, willing, and able, but again, another failure.

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Old 07-25-14, 04:38 PM   #2
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I'm sorry its come to this. I'm my early 40s myself. Suffered from depression starting around that age also. I'm religious, however I(we) respect the right to not believe. This is in fact reality for you(us).

That is terrible, and I'm surprised at what our bodies will tolerate. I've tried so many time, I couldn't count.

Whats wrong though? Why were you saving it for 4 months?

I do get it though.

I think you should tell us more.
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Old 07-29-14, 08:31 AM   #3
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Yes, I was depressed for a very long time as well (with suicidal thoughts all of the time and attempts to carry out taking my own life), I have since come to find however, that it really helps me to just relax and take it easy on myself. It's ok to be afraid, in fact, I have made friends with my fears. I believe there is an old Chinese trick where you make friends with these forces inside of you (fear, hatred, jealousy, anger, love etc.), in this way we can work together with these forces inside us. What I did was close my eyes and met with my fear and hugged it and let it know that I loved it unconditionally. Soon after, I met with the others inside of me and let them know how I felt as well. So please know that you are unconditionally loved, that you never have to suffer ever, and that we all care for you here very very much.
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