If you could find in your self motivation to find a therapist you can trust it might help you a lot.
I also studied the arts and mostly gave up and secluded my self from everyone for more than 10 years, last year at the age of 30 I felt I have nothing left to lose and I might as well see a therapist, I found one that I trust, and it wasn't easy, I had to change the way I see the world, and still need to make a lot of progress ,but for the first time since I was a kid I can find some motivation to live and I wonder how different my life would have been if I've seen one 10 years ago.
I've had social anxiety and extreme distrust in people for most of my life so I can imagine how hard it might be, but I believe it's worth the risk.
Good luck.
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