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Old 03-07-13, 08:49 PM   #1
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I don't want to be here anymore. I'm so tired... so very tired. I'm sick of everything. I don't want to go through this anymore. Its not worth it. It hurts too much. It just hurts... so much. It hurts to breath. To feel. To everything. I'm so tired of fighting. I just want to give up. I don't want to do this anymore.
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I know how that feels but by golly I'm still here so hope you'll hang around too.
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I am going thru the same feelings. I have no great words of wisdom. All I can do is sit in the empty room room with you. It doesn't matter why we hurt.. we just do. Like I said.. I have nothing to offer but just me.
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hello hidden storms. im new to this forum and its the first time ive offered anyone advice on here so please bare with me. Can i ask what is making you feel this way?
Do you have friends, family around you? the reason i ask is that, if you knew for one second the impact your suicide would have on the people around you, then the thought wouldnt even come into your mind. You may feel that no one understands or that no one loves you or cares if your alive, but i can assure you that is not the case. please try and talk to someone, even if its not a member of family or friend.
my boyfriend took his life last June, and to be honest with you, he may aswell have taken mine too. I have to raise my 3 year old daughter and i break down every time she asks me where Daddy is, or when she can see him. The impact that this has had on me, and everyone that knew him has been devastating. I live in a black hole that im never going to get out of, and i think about killing myself every single day, but the one thing stopping me is that i cannot put my family especially my daughter, through this pain that i am feeling now. i dont mean to preach at you but if my story can make you rethink even for a day, and go and talk to someone, then it was worth telling you it. good luck
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Old 04-02-13, 09:10 PM   #5
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I do think about what it would do to my family. And it tears me up inside. I probably won't do it. But I don't want to not kill myself just so that other people don't have to suffer because of my death. That's not good enough for me. I can be selfless all I want and live for their sakes. But I don't want that to be my reason to be here. I want to live for me. I want to want to live for my own sake. Not just for theirs.

Maybe it comforts people that I don't have the courage to kill myself. But it doesn't comfort me. Even if I'm too scared to do it, I don't want to live my life with the desire to do it. I don't feel any better just cause I won't actually take that step.

I feel like people stop helping you if you aren't any danger to yourself. But just cause I won't kill myself doesn't mean I need any less help. I'm still in pain. And I still want to kill myself.

I don't want to feel that way though. I want help. I want to be happy to live my life because I'm enjoying it. I don't want my one reason to stay here to be so that my death doesn't burden anybody. That isn't a good enough reason for me.
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I know exactly what you mean. I know two people in particular who would be totally devastated if I killed myself, and ripples would spread out beyond that, but that's not good enough for me either. The fact that I'm too much of a coward to do anything does not comfort me at all. I still have to face the pain and the loneliness every single day.

I wish I could offer something to help you, but it would have to go to me first. All I can do is let you know that you're not alone. Let's get through this together.
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i also feel the same... i dont fit in anywhere.. social anxiety out of control.. i cant offer you anything except the same as "imdonetoday" in any empty room and someone you can talk to when you need
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Thanks for your support. :) Hopefully things will get better, for all of us.
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You're very welcome. Here for you.
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