well im not everyone... and i wont b fed up of you.
please dont stop eating and drinking.. the kidney infection will pass and the pain will ease a bit once it does... you just need to keep hanging on

just feeling detached from everything now don't want to carry on. don't want to live like this. and don't know how to change it cos its all too hard.
and i aint good at anything.
thank u silent u mean the world to me.

u are good at lots of things...performing art is just to name one. i know its hard but im here with you and ile help you as much as i can thru it. just dont give up on me ok!

Hang in there Tears. Look, I'm new here and I don't know anything about you other than the fact that you're hurting, but I know what that kind of hurt feels like. I'm sure a few others on this forum know what it's like, too. We're all part of the same detestable "club".

It's a rare club, with exclusive membership, and no one wants to be a member of it. But you are, and we are, and that makes us all different - different from everyone else.

As I'm sure you already know, it's impossible for someone to really grasp what it's like unless they've experienced it. That's why meeting with doctors and concerned family members can sometimes be so infuriating - they haven't gone through it and, as much as they want to help you, their lack of experience and true understanding makes it difficult.

That's not the case here. We can help. And, unlike the majority of folks, we've gone through it. We know what it's like to wake up absolutely exhausted and unable to get out of bed; to curl up on the floor for reasons you're not entirely sure about; to smirk darkly at the fact that Tylenol PM and other over-the-counter meds come in such large quantities.

I guess the point of this rambling post is just to say "hang in there". You've got friends here who understand what's going on... and, in the future, someone might need your understanding, too.

((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
Keep fighting my friend. You are worth it. Life is worth it. I'm so sorry it is so hard right now. <3 <3

thanks everyone it means so much that ur all so supportive.
i'm still feeling the same just numb mentally and in pain physically also feeling sick. just bleh. idk what to say anymore i can't go on much longer like this. i think i've wasted my life and it doesn't mean anything anymore.

the only waste would be if you gave up, so don't, what would make you happy think about it ? what does make you happy? where would you like to be? what would you like to do?

Lame? Pathetic? That's not true. The brain evaluates your own purpose 100 times over. I suggest you evaluate your life. What could change to make it better? and I'm not talking about ending it, there's no need for that. Ask your self: What do I want to do (besides end "it")? What can make me feel like I'm valuable?
You need to find your self once more as you're lost inside your own feeling of darkness. And in darkness you can only feel the light, not see it. This is what makes life so difficult...

But we're here for you, so please continue posting.
Hope I came with something constructive...

Very well-said.

nearly started cutting last night but didn't was ready to but again don't know how i'd hide it from adam. cos haven't got the energy to have to hide things.
still feel like cutting. still feel the same theres no change to it all. i think i have to live my life like this until i die. it sucks. haven't even got the energy to get angry.
my life is pathetic and i don't think theres anything that would make me feel valuable and nothing really makes me happy anymore. you're right i'm lost in the darkness and have lost any sense of who i am, but there isn't a light and its all just hopeless. it all just seems to go on forever and i can't get out of it.

sorry guys u should all be fed up of me by now. you don't have to reply i'm just ranting bitching and whining. please ignore me i don't mind, i write here cos its my only vent at the moment.