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Old 07-10-18, 04:36 AM   #1
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I try to filter all the info I get in: what I watch, what I listen, what see and etc. But it's inevitable and I come across bad things on internet, news, TV or my mom loves to tell me heartbreaking crazy stories she saw on TV.

Sometimes it's just too much. I feel like I can't bear how cruel and stupid some people are. I don't want to be in the society like this.

I accidentally came across the video, where police shoot the dog, because the owner was laying drunk in the grass and the dog was unleashed and not letting anybody come close to the owner.

I've been crying all evening, not able to sleep, just feeling hopeless and powerless.
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Old 07-11-18, 09:51 AM   #2
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It is a sad world, full of hurt. Some of the videos and posts that end up filling my social media make me wonder whether it is even worth having a social media account. Things seemed so much easier when i was a lot younger, when i had no social media accounts or cares for the news. these were the last times i actually remember being truly happy, with no problems. running around with friends, messing about and getting up to no good. Nowadays all i seem to see be it online or in the news is actions that make me wonder what is going wrong with the world . in regards to your feelings, you are not hopeless, everyone has hope. I think hope is the only thing every one of us has in common, be it different hopes, but hope all the same. As hard as it gets at times, you are right, you just need to keep fighting, keep battling and keep taking giant strides forward.

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Honestly i feel you! I understand exactly what that feeling is. The feeling of the unfair and injustice of the society. The feelings that some really good people who deserve to have a happy life end up living a miserable one cause of this shitty society. And on the the other hand are those happy or wealthy people that cause harm and are selfish and indifferent of the suffering of the people the live next to them.


And guys like you and me...That can see the unfairness and injustice that takes place around them but are simply useless and powerless to do anything to stop this and instead just crying inside them but at the same time pretending to be strong and unaffected on the outside.


Some time ago i was working at a place with plenty of other men. One of them was physically and mentally weaker than the rest of the guys. He was like an innocent child although he was 18 years old. He was the most honest and harmless man i ever knew. I doubt if he ever though something bad for any human being! He was the most peaceful personality i ever met. Anyway, what i want to say is that all those phenomenically ''stronger'' guys were like taking advantage of him and like bully him but not physically but mentally. Like terrorizing him cause they knew he was so weak mentally to respond and physically to attack them. And i always get pissed off cause he never did something wrong to them and he was also very good personality so there was absolutely NO reason to do that! But they just did it!

We never get close with that guy and after i left that job, till today (couple of years later) i still think of him and dream of him and somehow i am worried for him. How can he even survive this world? How can he find happiness? He was one of the evidence i obtain that this world is cruel and it not for everyone.


Lastly, about your issue which i can exactly feel you, what i have done for long period is to make your heart out of stone! And through this i mean you have to make yourself ''bulletproof'' from those feelings and though. I know it sounds selfish but it's not really how it seems. You already know that you are not selfish and that you are a caring and compassionate person. Look at you! You cant even sleep cause a dog was killed! You are a lovely and caring person and there is no doubt about that. Just have this at the back of your brain before you make (as i referred it to) your heart bulletproof from this emotions and feelings and thoughts. You have to toughen up and dont give attention to every unfair shit that is going on in this life. This is your survival and it has a priority. So just dont let yourself feel sorry and mourn about the stuff that goes around you but instead bypass them and never think about them again. Again it may sounds selfish but we already know that you are not so it's not a big deal! It's just the only solution you are left with for you to survive in this society. So never again let those emotion penetrate your heart. Just think that ''ok, i wish i could help them but who is gonna help me??'' (not in revengeful way but the honest powerless to act way) and just move on!
I dont know if u understand what i want to say...

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Old 07-16-18, 07:08 PM   #4
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Honestly i feel you! I understand exactly what that feeling is. The feeling of the unfair and injustice of the society. The feelings that some really good people who deserve to have a happy life end up living a miserable one cause of this shitty society. And on the the other hand are those happy or wealthy people that cause harm and are selfish and indifferent of the suffering of the people the live next to them.


And guys like you and me...That can see the unfairness and injustice that takes place around them but are simply useless and powerless to do anything to stop this and instead just crying inside them but at the same time pretending to be strong and unaffected on the outside.


Some time ago i was working at a place with plenty of other men. One of them was physically and mentally weaker than the rest of the guys. He was like an innocent child although he was 18 years old. He was the most honest and harmless man i ever knew. I doubt if he ever though something bad for any human being! He was the most peaceful personality i ever met. Anyway, what i want to say is that all those phenomenically ''stronger'' guys were like taking advantage of him and like bully him but not physically but mentally. Like terrorizing him cause they knew he was so weak mentally to respond and physically to attack them. And i always get pissed off cause he never did something wrong to them and he was also very good personality so there was absolutely NO reason to do that! But they just did it!

We never get close with that guy and after i left that job, till today (couple of years later) i still think of him and dream of him and somehow i am worried for him. How can he even survive this world? How can he find happiness? He was one of the evidence i obtain that this world is cruel and it not for everyone.


Lastly, about your issue which i can exactly feel you, what i have done for long period is to make your heart out of stone! And through this i mean you have to make yourself ''bulletproof'' from those feelings and though. I know it sounds selfish but it's not really how it seems. You already know that you are not selfish and that you are a caring and compassionate person. Look at you! You cant even sleep cause a dog was killed! You are a lovely and caring person and there is no doubt about that. Just have this at the back of your brain before you make (as i referred it to) your heart bulletproof from this emotions and feelings and thoughts. You have to toughen up and dont give attention to every unfair shit that is going on in this life. This is your survival and it has a priority. So just dont let yourself feel sorry and mourn about the stuff that goes around you but instead bypass them and never think about them again. Again it may sounds selfish but we already know that you are not so it's not a big deal! It's just the only solution you are left with for you to survive in this society. So never again let those emotion penetrate your heart. Just think that ''ok, i wish i could help them but who is gonna help me??'' (not in revengeful way but the honest powerless to act way) and just move on!
I dont know if u understand what i want to say...
I understand. Thank you for your support
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