I don’t think I will ever be functional or normal. I won’t be able to work, go back to school, make friends, have a social life, have a significant other, get married, have kids. Because that’s where I am currently at and have been for years. I am isolated and lonely. I barely leave my room. I have social anxiety, borderline personality disorder, OCD, Body dysmorphic disorder, major depression, severe low self esteem, severe low self worth, and deal with paranoia at times. I am trying to get on disability as I am bipolar as well. What’s the use, no point in trying. The isolation and loneliness kills me, I don’t have any friends and no one to talk to. I feel so alone in this condition, like no one can hear me or see me.

you should never give up your fight to be a better person in life,the symptoms you describe are a total sum of lots of mental issues...attack them one by one..i have a friend who was on treatment for borderline=she went into group therapy sessions==she told me afterwards she felt bettter after that,but her problems returned,being normally functional??i am not normal either,but i function through my willpower and determination ,you miss out on going to school,get a job or getting married?there are millions of loners in this world who have to deal with these issues and most of them survive..you wrote**==I have social anxiety, borderline personality disorder, OCD, body dysmorphic disorder, major depression, severe low self esteem, severe low self worth, and deal with paranoia at times,I am trying to get on disability as I am bipolar as well**being or feeling lonely is a pain in the ass,but being alone can be very strongly positive,that's not a disorder but a choice..we all hear you here on TTL,telling your problems to the world is a start,Lojo..you are never alonekeep on fighting in life

Thanks tiger. You've always been nice to me. Thank you for your words.

Thanks guys. I do so many things on a regular basis to help myself. I go to the gym 3 to 4 times a week. I go for walks. I read. I draw. I write. I take pictures. I surf the web. I talk to people. Try to socialize. Some of these things provide temporary relief, but I always get back to square one. And most of these things don't really do much at all. I go to therapy twice a week. I take medications. I've been dealing with this for over ten years. I think this is it.