you should never give up your fight to be a better person in life,the symptoms you describe are a total sum of lots of mental issues...attack them one by one..i have a friend who was on treatment for borderline=she went into group therapy sessions==she told me afterwards she felt bettter after that,but her problems returned,being normally functional??i am not normal either,but i function through my willpower and determination ,you miss out on going to school,get a job or getting married?there are millions of loners in this world who have to deal with these issues and most of them survive..you wrote**==I have social anxiety, borderline personality disorder, OCD, body dysmorphic disorder, major depression, severe low self esteem, severe low self worth, and deal with paranoia at times,I am trying to get on disability as I am bipolar as well**being or feeling lonely is a pain in the ass,but being alone can be very strongly positive,that's not a disorder but a choice..we all hear you here on TTL,telling your problems to the world is a start,Lojo..you are never alone

keep on fighting in life