Ah, wow, I'm so sorry, that's really rough and then to witness it too. Very sorry. Are you in any counseling, do you have some proffesional help?
“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” Dr. Seuss
"The earth provides enough to satisfy every man's needs, but not every man's greed." Gandhi.
War is a racket. The few profit. The many suffer. --Major General Smedley Butler. 2 time congressional Medal of Honor winner.
"The greater the sensibility, the greater the suffering...much suffering." Leonardo da Vinci.
Everybody drank the Kool-Aid.