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Old 06-28-08, 12:21 PM   #1
 
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I am 22 years old and I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost five years. Last night I was partying with a couple of friends and I ended up in bed with some guy. I was drunk but I knew what I was doing.
Today I feel like shit. I don't know what I should do. I absolutely hate myself and I don't think I can forgive myself. My boyfriend has told me that if I cheat, he will break up with me, that there's no way he could ever forgive me.
I really love my boyfriend and we're going through a rough time right now. I was even planning on breaking up with him, but now I realize that I love him so much. I can't see any other way out of this than to kill myself. I can't live with what I've done.

Someone please help me!
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Old 06-28-08, 12:30 PM   #2
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killing yourself if not a way out... sorry ur going thru a rough patch right now... but i really think you should try and talk thru it
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Old 06-28-08, 01:04 PM   #3
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if u love ur boyfriend as much as u say u do, then u cant kill urself. imagine what that would do to him!
u should tell him, explain it to him and let him now that u love him and how much u regret it...let him that ull never do it again and tell him that ull understand if he leaves. do everything u can to keep him there after that but u really need to tell the truth. yes it may hurt him, but he will be able to heal u on the other hand, never will be able to if u just hold it in.
its up to u on what u should do, but i think u should tell ur boyfriend...
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Old 07-01-08, 05:15 PM   #4
 
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I can't tell him. I won't... I'll just have to figure out a way to live with myself...
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honestly sweetheart, i dont think ull be able to. the guilt will tare u apart! if u want to get past this, u have to face it!
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Old 07-02-08, 10:57 PM   #6
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hey fallen_angel, how are you today?
I'm sorry you were feeling so terrible about this + I am reading this + thinking about you...
feel free to talk some more about this...
we're still listening.
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Old 07-03-08, 07:01 PM   #7
 
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I saw a doctor today for the first time for my depression. I have been depressed for many years and this week (since I felt so bad for what I did) I realized that I needed help. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I already feel a lot better.
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well done for going... im glad u are feeling a bit better



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Old 07-04-08, 11:24 AM   #9
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glad your feeling better :). Perhaps you cheated because you were depressed? Sorry for your struggle, but im very happy to hear your better. best of luck. I pray you have the strength to not cheat, i know its tough..
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Old 07-04-08, 08:51 PM   #10
 
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I think that i cheated so that I would have a reason to break up with my boyfriend, be miserable by my self and then take my life... That sounds awful.. But now I've decided to fight, to get better..

Thanks for your support!
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