My life has not been an easy one, not in the slightest, I had a long and hard life filled with loss and hardships of which are bad to where... I don't wanna even talk about them to anyone, but recently a girl who I loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with despite​ our Young age and everything , she helped me be happy after one of the hardest times in my life... Then she cheated on me and left me for someone else while I was in the hospital... I... Just don't know what to do anymore... My physical health has been getting worse for a solid month now one thing after another and then this happens... I am at a loss.. I feel so devalued... I feel like I'll never find someone who I connect with like that again... I just want to end it all so badly... I feel so angry all the time... But also sad and I can't help but blame myself I just... I don't know what to do anymore... Someone... Anyone please help me... I've been hurting myself so much I have no where left to do it.. I don't know what to do....

I guess when you go through such a life you do loose your wits. I too self harm and it gets me through the day like I am doing it to live. I know how calming the effect can be.
People can be shit and dwelling on the things they do can make us feel hurt and they won't even care. So I think that giving such people more time than we already have is kinda stupid. They don't give a fuck and we shouldn't too. I know what I am saying is hard to do, trust me I know, but that's the only way out. I got out of a relationship this way only.
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