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Old 04-10-18, 01:10 AM   #1
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So..after 10 years of fighting and trying to push off my empty feeling in me. I find myself sitting here ready to accept defeat. I'm out of strength to keep going much further and I feel the need to end is coming.

For a long time I thought the needs of others would keep this at bay but I'm finding this isn't the case anymore. I'm just so tired, I hurt everyday. The worse of it all is the things that hurt so bad there is no way to repair. Lately I've found myself asking what if there is something better on the other side of this. I can't keep going like I am now.

I'm at a critical turning point and my last resort is reaching out to digital posts grasping at straws. I just wish things could be like they were back in the past. But those days are so far gone.
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Old 04-10-18, 09:25 AM   #2
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Keep pushing through. I know this may seem like a dark time for you right now but it always gets better... Believe me. Please hang in there.
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Im just not sure about that anymore. Eventually turns into enternity. How much further do I gave to keep going until it gets better? I can only ask this so many times before asking it seems pointless. Just the strength is gone.
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In a way, asking when it will get better IS a waste of time, as no one knows. So you need to try and change your focus from that thought to something completely unrelated to where your present thinking and feeling is. Do something you really like to do. I know that right now you may not be able to recall what it is that you may like doing, but try. Is it weeding the yard? Riding a bike? Playing solitaire online until you realize 2 days have passed? Shift your focus and then one day it will occur to you that the day is better. Otherwise, HANG IN THERE!
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When you said you wished things could be like they were in the past... God, that hit a nerve with me. Things were so good in my past, I think about it all the time, but now... I'm on a suicide forum. Bet all my enemies are laughing now.
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That's exactly how I feel and I know thinking about it all the time doesn't help but how exactly do you just turn that off and say nope not gonna think about that. It's almost the same when someone tells you to just "let something go" they don't exactly give a good explanation on what that entails. I'm convinced that either has to be a figure of speech or just something people say to make themselves feel better.
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Old 04-13-18, 08:51 AM   #7
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Thank you for saying something, at least I know I'm not the only one who has feelings like this.
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