So..after 10 years of fighting and trying to push off my empty feeling in me. I find myself sitting here ready to accept defeat. I'm out of strength to keep going much further and I feel the need to end is coming.
For a long time I thought the needs of others would keep this at bay but I'm finding this isn't the case anymore. I'm just so tired, I hurt everyday. The worse of it all is the things that hurt so bad there is no way to repair. Lately I've found myself asking what if there is something better on the other side of this. I can't keep going like I am now.
I'm at a critical turning point and my last resort is reaching out to digital posts grasping at straws. I just wish things could be like they were back in the past. But those days are so far gone.