I feel like I am heading down this path again. I have absolutely no one. Everything is so complicated it is so hard to describe but yet all so simply at the same time. I feel I am heading down that road very soon of wanting my life to end because despite what people say about it getting better and this too shall pass I am still waiting for that to happen and it just does not. I feel it is just a matter of time where I have reached the threshold of what a reasonable person and can bare and I will just end my life.