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Old 07-28-12, 08:06 PM   #1
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I feel like crap. I look like crap. I drink too much. I'm lazy, worthless, no good to anyone where I live. My parents hate me ( mother And step father). I'm going to be alone forever because I'm an ugly fuckwit. I'm not that big size wise. I hate myself. I'm a twat in most situations. I'm a perverted freak half the time. I want to kill myself. I will make no contribution to the world. Or the species. I deserve to die. I can't help myself as I'm a massive failure.

I want to go downstairs get a &@! And &@ myself until I bleed to death.
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Old 07-28-12, 08:13 PM   #2
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Why can't I just do it...get it over with tigers....just fucking kill yourself! No one will ever love you! You are a false liar! You pretend to be someone you are not...just do it...

What's another body amongst the foundations.

DO IT!
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Old 07-29-12, 09:05 AM   #3
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Talk to me bro. What's goin on?
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I just feel like giving in :(

So pointless...
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I just feel like giving in :(

So pointless...
It isn't pointless, sweetheart You are worth fighting for!
I know it gets hard... Please hang in there and talk to us,okay?
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Old 07-29-12, 11:01 AM   #6
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There is always a reason to want to die. It's easier to find those. Sometimes you have to look real hard, but there is always a reason to live. Even if it's just for the future you want. Or to finally defeat the KC. Hang in there bud. Give yourself a chance
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I barely eat anymore, I drink a lot more as well, been out spending money I shouldn't with friends that don't know the real me.

I'm slowly becoming a skinny alcoholic because I'm a big fucking failure. My parents know it, even my brother believes it...I thought he wouldn't give in to my parents beliefs...but he has. They would all be better off without me.

We barely talk anymore as they hate me..I am worthless. I don't have a job and they have been giving me ages to find one...I'm just a lazy little shit :(

When they kick me out I'll probably just get it over with...
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Old 07-30-12, 02:11 AM   #8
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Trust me man I've been there too. Not in the exact same way-but I get it and you aren't alone. It's hard to get yourself right when you are struggling. But you have the control here. You dont have to drink. You can allow yourself to eat. You decide how much effort to put into job hunting. The only person who can better yourself is YOU. And you have to dig deep and find the will and motivation to do that.

Nothing you are now is permanent. Trust me on that-you can make a good life for yourself. You can do the things you need to do. There is no cants or when's.
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I'm sorry I didn't see this yesterday. Please don't hurt yourself. Try to be patient. You are getting better and you know it. You need to keep going to therapy and take your meds every day.

Remember what we talked about with the jobs? Start with a really small step and work your way up. I've been thinking of you non stop.

I would be so upset if you were gone. Not to make you feel guilty, but I don't think I would ever get over it. Neither would your family. I think people underestimate the effect their suicide will have. I do this too.

I occasionally look at the students who killed themselves and their facebook profile if the family kept it up. This one kid did it over two years ago and his family and friends still post something every day. No one will ever just forget about you.

I'm always here if you ever need to talk.
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