I am glad you are better, mentally.
You're never going to be worthless or pathetic, never, never, never.
And seeking help never in any circumstances makes you a cryer. That's what we are here for. It helps us to know we can be of some small comfort to others like us.
And seeking help means you have courage. You will make a fantastic and empathetic doctor. Empathetic is as far away from "pathetic" as you can get.