Originally Posted by MercyCome
About the Eastern religions you mentioned being interested in... do you fear re-incarnation at all? At times I have.
I don't fear re-incarnation, nor do I believe in it. I think it's a bullshit doctrine introduced somewhere along the way, probably India, to control people by governments and elites: don't f'up, want more, or be like us or you have to come back and do-over; just stay in your caste.
Frankly, the do over in it's entirety would without a doubt be better than the beginning of this one that set in motion biological and psychological conditioning that is not reversible and creates continual suffering for me. I don't think the universe cares how my body ends or the fact that it is a conscious decision. Everyone goes in their own way. What's next? I don't have a clue- could be better, could be worse.
If asked "why" I would simply say: "I don't know; I did everything I thought was in my and others best interest. I dug deep, did the hard work yet still made poor choices that created more suffering for myself. Why did you give me a mission that was so ridiculously stupid and unattainable that my best intentions failed?"
Peace to you.