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Old 11-15-10, 02:13 AM   #1
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I'm seriously considering suicide...
I know I don't want to but there's no other way out of the pain, and the guilt. I watch the love of my 13 year old life bounce from guy to guy, and I just wait there for her to note me...
She considers me a brother. I don't want that...
It's like no one has any care for me. I wanna be loved, be held and have a shoulder to cry on. I want somebody to hold me and just tell me they care, because nobody does unless they're hiding behind 100 klicks and a computer screen...
I just want someone to love me... No one does. I'm so alone... A friend of mine loves me alot, but I don't love her... I'm just ready to end myself. The world could do better without a drug-using useless asshole that I am, I hate myself, I hate anyone like me, and I despise those who are worse than me...
I don't think I'm ever going to be happy again. Ever... I just want to die, I want to get murdered so I don't have to take my own life.

Sorry for the long read....
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Old 11-15-10, 02:34 AM   #2
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It does get better. I know you've probably heard it a thousand times, but it honestly does get better.
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Old 11-16-10, 01:10 PM   #3
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I know you think I'm just some random stranger 'hiding behind 100 klicks and a computer screen' but I'm here because I care. I'm here because I've been where you are, and I know it can get better. Whatever s*** you're feeling now can go away and be replaced with something better. It happened to me, it can happen to you.

But it didn't happen because someone else told me they loved me. I spent a lot of time learning to love myself before anyone started loving me. You have to start where you are. You already do have one person in your life who loves you. That doesn't mean you have to love them back, but it shows you that there is something in you that people can love.

You're young. You still have your whole life ahead of you (this coming from someone who used to hate hearing this s***, but it's true). It's going to get better. And no matter how awesome you think the love of your life is, you're going to find someone else you find even more amazing. This still happens to me, and I'm a heck of a lot older than you.

And don't apologize about the long rant. Mine was a lot longer than yours!
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Old 11-20-10, 05:35 AM   #4
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Yeah you guys were right, it is gettin' a bit better.
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Old 11-20-10, 09:19 AM   #5
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I'm glad to hear that things are looking up a little.

Anytime you need a friend, just let us know.
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Old 11-20-10, 09:39 AM   #6
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Maybe you should talk to your doctor about it. If you suffer from depression he might be able to help you. Most depressed people can be helped with proper medical attention - not all but most of us.

Hope the best for you.
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Old 11-20-10, 09:13 PM   #7
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hi skkarz. good to hear that you're feeling a bit better today just keep hanging in there! (and if it makes you feel any better, your first post reminded me of myself)
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