I didnít know where to post this as I am new here but as I do talk about suicide I thought I would post it in here. Truth is I think about suicide almost constantly and I wish to die. I have attempted suicide once but I really donít want to put my family through something like that so try to just get by in whatever way I can. It is quite hard at the moment and I currently donít work or study because of my problems. I get disability support and I am on medication but I donít think they help as much as I hope they would as I still feel really low.
A lot of the time, especially recently I donít see a way out of this black cloud. I feel so useless and think I am a failure. I see other people living their lives but I am just stuck in this rut. I really want to die. One thing that I like and kind of still enjoy is football (soccer) but even that interest is not like it used to be. I want to be better but at the moment canít see it happening anytime soon. Just wondering if anyone can relate or anyone else into football (soccer) like me.
thanks for reading anyway