Goodness, I hope you are ok
my parents always told me "where there is life, there is hope" being so young I hope you understand that while obstacles can feel terribly large and too big, there is always tomorrow. You can't stop the March of time and there is never ever any telling what is around the corner, it's not always terrible and honestly usually better, there is only so far down you can go before you have to start going back up! . Not only that but for feelings of loss time helps too. I hope you are ok. Next time you are feeling down I want you to remember that you are absolutely a fantastic and worthy Person, you are special, even if you don't feel it, thinking of you and hope you are ok. Remember, talking helps.