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Old 06-28-18, 10:53 PM   #1
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Everything seemed ok, more or less.
But then all of a sudden I feel super blue, to the point where I have suicidal thoughts again.
I don't know if it's PMS or just a set of things, that triggered me, but it sure is not a good place to be.

May be it's when things don't turn out as you hope for, and when the hope is gone, there is nothing to live for.

I've had some triggers lately too. My mom doesn't wish me well, I already concluded that. I can't really hope for her advice or support, because she always wants to sabotage anything good in my life.

I made a mistake with my finances again.

My boss doesn't call me in to work anymore. It feels like a rejection. The girl from work stole from me.

My dad called me only to say that he was upset, that I didn't call him for 2 months (I don't think it was that long, plus I worked and had a car accident). After he expressed his negativity, he almost hung up on me. And this man here abandoned me for 20 years.

I met a new guy online. After a week of pursuing me to say yes to a date, he said something like "ok, I guess we could have a date" as if he was doing me a favor. Then he started question my pictures as if they were not up to date or something. That made me very conscious of my age. WTF!! He is 5 years older and my last boyfriend is 4 years younger than me and never had a problem with my age.

When I went shopping to find an outfit for a date (all my clothes is old, I haven't been out for a while), I realized I gained a few pounds. That sent me over the cliff...

I cancelled the date and feel very blue.

The other guy that I was seeing, got a new "roommate" - a girl from my work. When I asked her if she sleeps with him, she looked down and said "of course not". She doesn't know about me and him, but that made me extremely sad and jealous, that he had actually moved on and has someone new.
I even texted him, asked what's up, what's new. He said "nothing" and wanted to see me, yet didn't invite me over as usual. And didn't mention the new roommate. Also didn't mention his recent trip with another girl. He made it sound like he was waiting for me to come back around and was just working. It reminded me, why I left him in the first place. Yet I feel sad, that we can't be together.
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Old 06-30-18, 02:15 AM   #2
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I don't want to go back to my meds :( My doc quit, I have to find a new doc to prescribe that. I feel the impact on my liver and skin...But I can't handle depression from gaining a few pounds and not having focus, my brain is scattered.
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Old 06-30-18, 02:17 AM   #3
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Hey ISOP.. it's nice to see you back [IMG class=inlineimg]https://www.takethislife.com/images/smilies/smiley-hug002.gif[/IMG]

I've been feeling down myself. It's really good to know I'm not alone, though I hope we both have better times. I'm 20something btw. I changed my name since I will be getting older. People play childish games with online dating lol. That guy tried to make himself feel better having to nag you for a date, but don't take the bait. Other than getting down, I will say that you seem to be taking all of this in stride. You could feel angry.. but you seem to just process as it comes. That's good. That's healthy. I hope you have better days in your life soon enough but it's always nice to see you, love. Hopefully, I will see you on better terms 😁
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Old 06-30-18, 02:55 AM   #4
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Hey ISOP.. it's nice to see you back [IMG class=inlineimg]https://www.takethislife.com/images/smilies/smiley-hug002.gif[/IMG]

I've been feeling down myself. It's really good to know I'm not alone, though I hope we both have better times. I'm 20something btw. I changed my name since I will be getting older. People play childish games with online dating lol. That guy tried to make himself feel better having to nag you for a date, but don't take the bait. Other than getting down, I will say that you seem to be taking all of this in stride. You could feel angry.. but you seem to just process as it comes. That's good. That's healthy. I hope you have better days in your life soon enough but it's always nice to see you, love. Hopefully, I will see you on better terms 😁
Hi ET, it's good to see you hitting those 30s lol.
That guy tried to pose himself as a superior before even meeting me. He is like the VIP of some local club. So fking what. He can pull that card with young bishes lol If he makes me feel down emotionally, I am out, even if he is the president.

I am so happy I didn't go. OMG. My bio energy field is very sensitive these days, any small trigger sets me off. I can't afford to have toxic people around.

When I went on vacation with that other guy, I was emotionally down for a month. Won't repeat that mistake again.
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Old 06-30-18, 01:18 PM   #5
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You can never afford to have toxic people around. That new guy sounds super rude. Stay safe. I also find that keeping busy helps.
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You can never afford to have toxic people around. That new guy sounds super rude. Stay safe. I also find that keeping busy helps. [IMG class=inlineimg]https://www.takethislife.com/images/smilies/smiley-hug002.gif[/IMG]
Yes! Do stay safe!!
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I get that a lot, the slightest silly problem and the world goes to shit, I just want to get as far away from people as possible.
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