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Old 06-01-17, 02:04 PM   #1
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I'm a 27 year old female who gave up absolutely everything last year to move from my native Boston, MA to north England to be with my fiance. He was lovely but then he changed when I arrived in the UK. He used me, cheated on me and then threw me out of our apartment. I ended up in a hostel for a while. I got a dead end job which pays next to nothing and I'm overqualified for. I have no friends. Absolutely none. I have a very strong Bostonian accent which people laugh at or stare at me for.

I have developed GAD and depression. I have taken to numbing everything with painkillers and I know that I am shooting my liver in the process.

There is no point to me living any more. I just feel totally numb and empty inside.
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Old 06-01-17, 07:24 PM   #2
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I wish I knew the words to stop your pain KSanford but I assure you, you're not alone. Reaching out is a very good step and posting here may help you as there are many other people here who know your pain as they're either going down the same road or have been there themselves.

Please, don't give up on yourself. Get counselling wherever you can. I know that feeling of being numb and helpless as well and yes, there are days I have a hell of a time getting up out of bed because I could not see any hope.

Hang in there please. One day at a time.
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Old 06-05-17, 02:36 AM   #3
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You are still young, KSanford and you can start a new life again. There is lots of time and hope for you. Don't get too paranoid about your accent, people aren't laughing at you in a negative way, they laugh because you sounf funny to them. Laugh with them. They are not agaist you.
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Old 06-06-17, 08:46 PM   #4
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You are still young, KSanford and you can start a new life again. There is lots of time and hope for you. Don't get too paranoid about your accent, people aren't laughing at you in a negative way, they laugh because you sounf funny to them. Laugh with them. They are not agaist you.
Well put Enddays. And KSanford, I've had people laugh at my accent as well (I'm Canadian) so you're not alone. Try to remember that everyone speaks with an accent and that our accents are a part of our identities. Something to cherish and not to fear.
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